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Thoughts on life and society can be pointless, but that's what books are for. I've never enjoyed reading. It's always been difficult for me to read. Sometimes, I imagine little demons pulling at my eye lids. The Devil is in the details. I like people, who can act. They're fun to watch. I guess I wish I could be an actor, but I just don't have that charm and I stutter. My life is meaningless. I just lope from one place to another. I think that's my strength. Most people need a career and family. .. Family is a nice idea, but I've never had a nice family. Is this becoming annoying? ... Let's start with Vertago! He's cool and a stud. He also is popping up a lot in my movie watching. The mind can make association: like is the guy on the radio talking to me? Or why am I seeing so many eye balls in my movie watching? Jeeeze! I just saw CASE 39. A really scary movie with an eye ball scene that's very icky. This guy has a hornet come up out of his eye's lid.. tear duck. Any who, it's scary. Well, when I was Veratgo on Private Games.com my picture was of my left eye. It was trippy. Just a note to the CASE 39 writers: Lilith is not evil. I'm talking about Adam's first wife, expelled from Eden, because she "Would not be his beast of burden." Lilith is the first feminist in Bible Lore, she is immortal. So you can't drown her. Nope, only God can stop her. Okay, this Vertago guy is still effecting me. Strangers will look at me and cover their right eye, cars will shut one headlight off. That's dangerous! I had an elderly woman pinch my butt an call me "Vertago." in the mall. There was a Vertago concert. There is a Vertago song by U2. I started writing about Vertago in the 90's on an Australian web site Private Games.com. That's when I was working at Wal-Mart. Wal-Mart was awful. I had an over night manager slap me in the face. I just wish people would stop dropping pennies around me. I mentioned that Abraham Lincoln is looking to the right, while all the other presidents are facing to the left, because he was assassinated. Now, I get penny's dropped around me. I wish I had mentioned the dollar bill and the star of David over the eagel's head. It has twelve stars in it for the twelve Apostles. Feel free to throw dollars at me. Reflections: I wasn't completely honest about what I said about the penny. I was quoting the old Civil war lore Lincoln was facing right because he freed the slaves and turned his back on the brotherhood. That's what I wrote on Private Games.com. I'm not in favor of slavery. |
| Ah, the reflection in the ripples of time. I guess I'm sensitive. My mother told me I was. She was spooky in her prediction. She never missed ... One thing is constant , moms are spooky. I loved my mother and not so much anybody else.. Dad was considerate, but distant. So, what? How many people have had the same regrets about family? I look at my life as a journey , so far nothing much has popped up. Where will it all lead? Look, I know this is rambling dribble , but have you thought about Devine Providence? I have a lot of time to think about this.. What if everything we do has profound implications? Why do these crazies go ballistic and massacre bystanders? Maybe, I was rude to one of them and that set them off? There is a line of impertinence in my writing. I've often wondered if I'm encouraging antisocial behavior. There are so many other larger malevolent influences , like violent video games or violent movies... It seems egotistical to believe that I have any sway in the flood of hedonism and sardonic nihilism.. I'll bet much of the serial killings are related to obsessive narcissism and masturbation. Have you ever thought about how many times a day you are enticed? People are encouraged to be impulsive and the media plays on their vanity and avarice.. I just do not believe any good will come from this. This Putin guy is nuts and he might drag us into WWIII. The kid, who goes on a killing spree is nuts too, but on a smaller scale. They both are looking for power in violence. It never works for me. Oh well, I have no control over the whimsy of the masses. Tootles. |
| I guess I'm one of those fuddy duddies who watches Fox News. I'm 51. I like news and debates especially when they get nasty. The Fox anchor women are cute and there's always a leg shot. Yummy! Hmm, Benganzi reminds me of every other embassy attacked in the middle east under every administration. A congressional committee couldn't impeach Nixon. He resigned. Who could be satisfied with the congressional investigation into the Twin Trade Tower terrorist attack? Congressional investigations are politically motivated. They can't handle the truth,+ George W. tried to stop any investigation into 9/11. George H. stopped General Schwarzkopf from invading Iraq , George W. thought 9/11 justified an invasion of Iraq.. If the Bush family wanted to take the oil fields of Iraq, then George H. had the most legitimate reason to do it. Saddam invaded Kuwait. . That is an act of war. It does feel like a conspiracy, but it's stupid. Any who, I landed in Televi on 9/11. I'm a skeptic about religion, but I wanted to walk in the land of the prophets. My flight originated out of Logan airport at the same time the high-jackers boarded their flights. Israel was wonderful and I only ran across one military battle at the siege of Marry Magdalin's Town. We couldn't enter the town, but it was exciting to see Israeli tanks rushing up the highway. Ramone my guide said, "What do you expect when you fuck us over?" I replied, "The United States is the only country to use the atomic bomb." Ramon and his Palestinian driver didn't like my answer. Strange days...indeed. 900 and 99 to go... If I'm reading the Bible code correctly. Armageddon should happen in 999 days. God why ? The works of God are just, but this is just stupid. =+= |
| I've been living with a Leprechaun for 2 years. He's very grumpy. Every morning he wakes up cursing and threatening to kill everyone. His general outlook is < Anybody pisses me off : they're dead.> He likes to brag about his short career in the Marines and what a killer he is. He blew out his knee in boot camp. Almost everyday he will warn someone that he was a Marine and he can kick their ass. But, he has arthritis in his fingers and his his shoulders. He also complains about severe painful acne. Okay, he is very loyal and buys me dinner, but is reluctant to pay for gas. This is what I think about at 3am when driving my Leprechaun to work, "Will he ever shut up?" "I've worked 6yrs for this shit job and they wont promote me. Fuckem!" he likes to remark... And why wont they promote him? Well, he has a lousy attitude . He likes to call his boss "Shit head!" That's not a team player. I'm reminded of my dad's advice, "If you don't like it leave." Dad had a ton of gems like that, "No one cares about you. Just get lost." These mottos happened around my college graduation to K-Mart manager. Dad had hoped I be a teacher and paid for my college education. He was not pleased that I remained at home, while climbing the K-Mart ladder. But, then mom got sick and I became a, "a useful oaf." My sister called me a, "Lazy bum." So, I'm use to dealing with grumpy people. I just watched CRUMB it's so similar to my life, except, Ronald Crumb is a successful cartoonist. I buy lottery tickets.. Any who, the Leprechaun got hit in the back of the head with a brick and the brick split. He told me he had a metal plate in his head. I urged him to get an x-ray, but he hates hospitals. So, he probably has a concussion. His brother threw the brick. Most murders are family related. The Leprechaun is a chalk outline waiting to happen. Oh, well... <^> |
| I think Bill Maher is right , "It's cool to be cruel." Another high school massacre and no one can stop it. When I was in Cambridge Ringe and Latin there were knife fights. The fight was between two guys over a girl. The idea of killing strangers was not real. Kids settled their grudges with the offender. One notorious playboy got chased by a group of boys off the school grounds ... He jumped a chain linked fence and caught his pinky ring in the prongs. His pinky popped off and he never got it back. He had nine fingers from that day on. Most of the fights were between boys over girls or drug dealing or both. This new generation of killer has a grudge against everyone. A terrorist wants to disrupt the community with violence for a political cause. These sociopaths have no such agenda.. They only hate. It worries me when I go to a theater or any other public place. Is there another homicidal maniac around me ? I like nihilism and anarchist music and movies. I like to play with these concepts. I wonder why God allows evil .. And I enjoy erotic massages. Am I a sociopath? I have known mean kids and now they are gentle parents. Is this all biological or genetic necessity ? I don't know. Honestly, I just do what feels right. I am the product of a Catholic home which had many faults. Here's what tickles my cerebral right now ~ Your angry. Do you act out your anger ? Do you shrug it off ? Do you get an erotic massage ? What tickles you ? I like Simon&Garfunkles' The Sound of Silence and the Flipper theme music. Wolf Tones are cool... or Lady GaGa and Tony Bennett ~ The Lady is a Tramp . God Loves the One Who Got His Own. Spinning Wheel. ? =+= |
| I recently spoke with my big brother . He said that he was sent to Vietnam to fight communist expansionism." "And to protect the largest supplier of rubber. So you fought for rubbers too?" I quipted. My big brother thinks I'm lying about my family memories . Honestly, would I be this screwed up if I was? But, I believe memories are what makes us .. Oy. The bizzar events now are comical .. I don't think I told this one before. But, my sister's were obsessed with their breasts. I could hear them fighting in their bedroom. I was down stairs and ran the two flights up to their door. They were wrestling topless in their panties. The first place my eyes went to their breast. My next view was their hair pulling. There was also a musky sent, like a skunk. My first impression was that my sister's breasts were like mine. I have a hollow in my chest that makes my pecks more like breasts. I like breasts, but I focus more on the hooch. It reminds me of a clam's lips.. Yummy. I tried to be discrete when I glance at a lady's clam. But, I have big eyes. Both my sister's spotted my gaze and ran at me. I escaped with a door slam on my butt. Cathleen told me later that the fight had started when they were comparing their breasts. My oldest sister Maura had one breast smaller than the other, while Cathleen still had not developed any cleavage. Cathy asked me to feel her breasts and judge them.. I told her mine were bigger. She slapped me and I ran crying to mom. I was in 2 grade. Mom told me never to insult a woman. Both her breasts were removed and I was bottle fed. Maybe, that's why I'm not a breast man? Memories are important and I am honestly recalling them. Maybe, this is helpfull. 777 |
| We've all had that crazy thought. And in this gun happy country, mass murder sells. The NRA has stated in writing it wants no restrictions on private gun ownership, because a well armed militia is our final solution to tyranny. That sounds like a terrorist threat.. Is the NRA aware that there are Islamic gun clubs in the USA ? Yes there are and some of them are in New York. Well, I guess there is no threat from law abiding Muslim gun owners.. ? More people are killed in traffic accidents, then by terrorist.. Why blame the godless atheist for mall shootings? If you believe in God and that 17 vestal virgins are waiting for you , then you will be a law abiding citizen. Right ? Imagine a world where anyone with a drivers license can shoot the President. You can do it if you try. So a sinerio ~ I don't like you. I go to my local gun store and purchase a Sherman tank. I drive the tank to your home and blow up your house with you in it. Am I a bad person ? Maybe I'm confused. Should everyone be denied the write to own a Sherman tank ? Here's a naughty thought what if guns had computer chips ? Then, an intelligent gun could prevent stupid people from doing bad things with it. " Oh ! You son of a bitch ! " the stupid person says as his gun refuses to fire on Joseph Bananas, who cut him off in the Walmart parking lot. I'd like to shoot the loon, who came up with those gross antismoking commercials. Really ? More people die in traffic accidents ? Why not show mutilated bodies in car wrecks for car safety commercials ? Well , you wont see gun accident commercials . That's un-American. I'd like to shout out to all assault rifle owners. Do you want a revolution ? If that rifle is okay to carry , why not take it on an airplane or to a movie ? Or a NRA meeting ? Adios ! Muzzy |
| For all the folks I've met , nothing important in my life has been popular. Popularity is commercial. It is an advertisement driven media that encourages popularity. Of course , I had my moments of group approval , but so what? I think ... therefore who cares ? And more importantly why do I want to sell my conscious ? It is fun to mess with popular ideals and that is my pathology .. for you profilers. A lot of this mumbo jumbo monkey chest beating is instinctive ... But , what teenage kid would wear a kilt in Boston ? I did. My dad thought the kilt was cool , but could see a whole lot of ass kicking coming my way. I hate popularity. The kilt thing was a St. Patrick Day angst.. Saint Patrick converted Ireland to X-Mass and he was British. This all happened in the days of the ancient Roman Empire when every man wore a tunic or kilt. Mind you , my sisters liked to dress me up like a hooker from the age of 5 to 9.. I resisted as puberty kicked in to walk around the neighborhood like a $20 hooker. I was aware of the danger .. * WHAT IS POPULAR CAN GET YOU LYNCHED * What if the government made a law that all men had to wear kilts ? Would the pop culture encourage it ? Or would rebellious antisocial teens dress in white collar suites and ties ? It's all about how you want to fit in.. I just don't care. I guess I'm a burn out. Tootles! |
"How rude. How dare you?" So what? How do you resolve an disagreement with an asshole? At the age of 51, I still can't answer that ... except to say, "Shit happens." I also believe that the easy access to assault weapons creates massacres .. Now I feel a notion to wax philosophy (I am not a philosopher). What are laws for? When I was a lad a group of bandits was stealing bicycles and lawn furniture in my neighborhood. The police were called, but they could not patrol our neighborhood due to cut backs in their budget. So, a neighborhood watch was formed... like minute men; mostly soccer moms. It was discovered that the bandits would strike when most of the neighbors were at work. Mrs. Gardner took pictures of the thefts in progress, after calling the police. The police arrived several hours later. However, the photos were used to locate the bandits from police criminal records. Arrests were made! None of the bandits served any prison time and Mrs. Gardner's windows were smashed with rocks. The law served no purpose ... Neighbor's locked up their bicycles and chained the lawn furniture and more guns were purchased... Yes, there was a shooting, but the bandit escaped unharmed and the neighborhood watch was warned by the police not to shoot at bandits. Sound familiar? I am amused by TV murder mysteries. You know they'll solve the crime in 40 to 50 minutes. Nobody wants to watch a cop show where no bad guys get caught. It's so predictable. What are laws for? Why, law abiding citizens of course. Bandits get away with murder and lawn furniture. That's their profession. ~~~ <^> |
| Very few people want to have a hand up their orifice. But, if you ponder the lifestyles we settle for; we are all hand puppets. I have had some manager's or friend's hand up my ass at one time or another. What my sisters taught me was to wait for the tickle. One find day I'll just turn around and say "No fucking way!" I was asked to clean up a shitty bathroom. Not, my thing. But, I did it with kerocen and a match. It was a concrete bathroom, no one cared about a burnt floor. A flash back to a smack in the nut sack, brought images of two kids in my school getting suspended for gay sex in the boy's room. It was illegal in the 70's. I thought that was stupid, but my dad's Roman Catholic terror tactics made me fearful to say so. Gayness was weakness. My best friend Micheal was DNA gay. He just wanted it. At our puberty Micheal wanted to kiss me. I just did not have a strong feeling either way. So, I went with him. It was like hand puppets in my simple sexual fantasy. Then, his sister Racheal kissed me and I fell for her. She was very horny and 16. I knew all about the female erotic zone from my older sisters. I suppose this is abnormal. I can't be objective. I've never seen any TV siccom like my childhood. I liked to watch My Favorite Martian and Wonder Woman. I wrote to Linda Carter that I had a costume like her. I got an autographed photo back. The negative side to all of this weirdness is a disconnected life. But, I do like hand puppets. Whatever! Test Pilot ~ Cloe Concept: Cloe is a cross dressing boy. Her parents are sensitive and try to acomidate Cloe. Her friends are also cross dressers and gay. Target Market: Liberal families. No? Yes? |
I sent a letter to the Bishop of Maine and his secretary replied that the Pope would be reading my letter. I think I'm going to be banished from the Vatican.. The letter was a question about faith and the Apostolic line. There were a lot of wicked Popes and now we have two. I wrote about Saint Placid and how his father bought his way into the Vatican. Saint Placid was sent to a monastery when he was 9. What choice did he have? His father wanted him there for political reasons. This is not Christian. Right? Recently, I spent $10 on a palm reading. The fortune teller is right next to a Subway Sub shop. She was very entertaining. I didn't believe her. And isn't that why churches are so desperate for parishioners? Who wants to waist an hour in worship when the football game is on? I've always been skeptical. I asked Sister Emeritas if there were dinosaurs in Eden. She said that monsters came after the fall from grace. According to the Bible Angels instructed Adam and Eve on how to make clothes and farm and hide from dinosaurs? It just seemed silly. I was forced to sit through the Latin Roman Catholic Mass as a boy . It was very humid and hot in the summer and I had to wear a suit and tie to worship... Rabbi Jesus? I think Jesus was about helping people not sweating to boring Masses. A truly traditional Mass would be in Aramaic .. but, the Papacy was invented by a Roman Emperor; Constantine. So, it's an Italian opera. Oy. Does it bother anyone that religion is leading us to World War lll? Imagine a middle east full of agnostics. Qwerky fiction can come true.. "009 here mum. You need me to stop religious fanatics from blowing up everything?" Alright, that's a Bond film that wont be made or has it? "0010 here mum. The Republican Party has been taken over by Christian fanatics? Yes, mum I'll see what I can do." What if the Pope was a terrorist? Jesus crow! I think I'll watch Casino Royal... Shaken not stirred. 777 |
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