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   LIVE WITH INTENTION.  WALK TO THE EDGE.  CHOOSE WITH NO REGRETS.. DANCE IN THE LIGHT APPRECIATE MY FAMILY & FRIENDS.  |
| My poem is up on the website. Check it out. http://ink-sweat-and-tears.blogharbor.com/ The Feb 13 entry. Sorry about the silence. Real life is too real (re:busy) sometimes and it may be a while before I can get back to writing. At least writing something of interest. Hope everything is good in your world right now.  |
| It's so bright in here without the the yellow wallpaper. I knew it was coming. In fact, I was glad. I never warmed to the pukey yellow of the walls here. But this white is so... WHITE. Like an empty room with an echo white or write on the walls white or worse hospital white. Yuuuuck. Or white like a piece of paper. All it needs is lines and it will mock me like a note pad. Nope. Still working on the writer's block, but its always good to have tools to play with and break. As my brother used to say. "I'm pretty sure this went here." as he destroyed his latest toy. |
| Wahooooo!!!!! I'm going to be published!!!!! I submitted a poem to www.ink-sweat-and-tears.com a webzine/blog and it's been accepted. No payment, but to be published was the goal. Happy dance!!!!!! I will post the link in 3-4weeks when it comes out. |
| Remember that flip entry about how it never snows in my corner of SC, or once in a blue moon? Well.. what color is the moon tonight? "Snowed in? Really? In Coastal Carolina?"  By JOSH MARTHERS Meteorologist Published: January 20, 2009 The National Weather Service has issued a Winter Weather Advisory for Berkeley, inland Colleton, Dorchester, Orangeburg, and Williamsburg counties. Light rain and drizzle will mix with and change to snow late tonight and Tuesday with accumulations up to one inch possible in the advised area. Some higher amounts are possible if heavier bands of snow develop during the day on Tuesday. Accumulations should be confined to mostly grassy surfaces and rooftops, but bridges and overpasses may become slick if snow becomes a little more intense. Scattered snow showers are expected across the entire area on Tuesday, but the advised area has the greatest chance of seeing accumulating snow. Thank goodness, I am staying home moaning and groaning about it, instead of driving in it today. P.S. Dear Hubby called. He wants to a mount a machine gun (or was it a grenade launcher?) on his SUV for the Southerners who don't know how to drive in winter weather. Hey topsey is that part of the more courteous society you were ranting about earlier? |
| If there is anyone still reading this, sorry about the delay. Real life is getting too real sometimes. I'm having some health issues as well as a serious case of writer's block. I might have to whine after all. God Bless Lani |
| Lt. Cmd Benjamin Sisko couldn't believe it. They had brought him back here again. Why? The sights, sounds and even the smells of the destroyed Saratoga were all around him. Even though the Commander knew it was a memory, he still felt all of the emotions as if it was still happening. And Jennifer, his wife, how many times would the aliens that brought him here make him endure her death? "I don't want to be here," said Sisko. "Then why do you exist here? replied the alien inhabiting a Jennifer body. Confused, the Commander answered, "I don't understand." "You exist here," alien-Jennifer returned with firmness. -from Star Trek Deep Space Nine The Emissary I loved this of episode Deep Space Nine. My heart understood before my mind did. It's about not carrying your past around with you. It's about not letting every decision be influence by a single emotional event. It's about where your heart lives. Taking the 31 day challenge in December really opened my eyes to writing possibilities. I found myself writing about events from my childhood. Events with strong emotions that are dark. I'm not sorry that I wrote about them. I needed to do it, but I don't want to stay there. I don't want to exist there. 17The scroll of the prophet Isaiah was handed to him[Jesus]. Unrolling it, he found the place where it is written: 18 The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, 19 to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor." 20 Then he rolled up the scroll, gave it back to the attendant and sat down. The eyes of everyone in the synagogue were fastened on him, 21and he began by saying to them, "Today this scripture is fulfilled in your hearing." Luke 4:17-21. I have had lots of prayer and healing and therapy over the years. I have had lots of antidepressants and coping mechanisms. But it all comes down to this: Do I believe Jesus? Did He set me free or not? If He did, why do I sometimes go to my default position of isolation and depression? Why not work out it with Him? I have to stop judging Him. He did not chose evil. Family members did. I am the created. I cannot judge the Creator.....This makes God seem rather remote and He is not. I want to expand more on this theme later. I want to live in the Light. There are books I want to read and possibly blog about them. Right now I am reading Waking the Dead, The Glory of a Heart Fully Alive, by John Eldredge. Its about finding the abundant life Christ promised and why so few of us have it. Mr. Eldredge also wrote and cowrote two of my favorite books: Wild at Heart and Captivating. I want to reread them. Another book I want to read it How to be a Christian without being Religious. by Fitz Ridnour. It's an old book I found in a second hand shop. It is a study of the book of Romans. Manifest Presence by Jack Hayford is about finding God's Grace through worship. I've had some of these books several years and I am feeling the energy and will to start. I want my writing to reflect the positive. How can you NOT be depressed if you work in dark emotions. I had a friend who actually said, after I asked him to read a story," Not if its another betrayal story. All your stuff is about betrayal." Funny, that's not how I would have characterized it. And yet, the pieces that get the most traffic in my port are the positive ones. But positive doesn't mean sappy or sloppy. I consider "First Day of School" to be positive in a bittersweet way. And the poem "In My Hands" is a positive surrender. And it doesn't mean I've lost my sense of humor. I just want out of the ruts that I have been traveling in real life. I want more balance. Less focus on one thing (writing for example) and more focus on my whole life. How things are working or not. Maybe, I can make my writing more better (as they say) and that will help the process.I guess what I am saying is that I want for the blog to be a little more spiritual, more positive and more intentional. I want my writing to be a reflection of the gift He gave me. I will probably write once a week or so in the blog. I will continue short stories and poetry. I write all these intentions like I know what the future will bring. I don't. I may flame or fritter out or get disgusted, distracted or implode. Stay tuned. One more quote and I'm done, I promise. 8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. Philipians 4:8-9. P.S. This feels slapped together, but I have been thinking about it awhile. Please feel free to tell me I'm full of it or correct the grammar. I set myself a high bar. I can't wait to see if I can jump it. |
| This was too funny not to post. Enjoy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWiXy55OHyY |
| Happy New Year Everyone I hope to have a better and complete entry in a day or two. It will focus on the direction I will take the blog. I think that David McClain   's advice to mclellan36 is true. I want quality over quantity. But more about that later..Thanks for hanging with me |
| The obstacle is the path – Zen Proverb "There's a rock in my path God." Of course. A smooth path is boring. "But am I suppose to do with it?" "Huh God? Are you there? What about this rock?" It's too heavy to lift. Too hard to break. Too high to climb without tools or help. Not that I didn't waste time trying all these things. "God, its blocking the whole path." Going around it means entering the dark woods. I can't. Not without a guide. I could just sit here and wait for Him to move it. Damn this is boring. I'm gettin fat and stupid just sitting here. Why doesn't He just take it a way? "God, are you still there?" I never left. "Could you please show me the next step in this path? I can't do it myself. " All you had to do was ask. And I heard the smile in His voice. |
| "BLOG about a take on the experience of blogging for 31 days, mention the prompt scene etc. And include whatever you like." I have truly enjoyed the 31 day challenge. I have made friends here and I've improved my writing. The jury is still out on the grammar. The prompts have been fun, festive, perplexing and usually inspiring. There have been a few head scratchers. I'm glad I joined. earlybird is proposing a 365 day challenge. I've been thinking about it all day and I have to say that I cannot commit to it. The only reason I felt ready to try the 31 day challenge was that hubby traveled most of the month. With him home, its been harder to carve out time. My work schedule also makes the challenge more challenging. Coming home at 8:30p.m. and then getting up at 5:00a.m. the next day leaves little time for indepth writing. I could keep up with a weekly or bi-weekly challenge. One of my goals for the New Year is to get my relationship with God right again. With WDC and my ADD, I can sit in front of the computer 6-7 hours with no problem. Somehow, I don't think that is His plan for this stage of my life. Its not the best way to lead a healthy lifestyle either. Another goal for the New Year was to be kinder to hubby. He hopes to travel less this year so maybe we can focus on making our marriage better. I will keep writing. I still want to be published. I will work with less intensity than this last month but hopefully with more quality. The forum will still be here so I will be reading with great interest. And of course I will continue read my favorites. And thanks Earl for a fun month. I expected to lonely and a little looney with hubby away so much. This was a great distraction |
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