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 |   I am finding my stride and living life in a world filled with chaos and change. |
  And here's my Simpsonized picture...  and my daughter, Baba. Isn't she cute?  Actually, I need to upload the whole family, just for the heck of it sometime. Then, I'll always have them right here with me.  This journal forced itself into being because I loathe, no, I mean, I love to write. It is a struggle to state what I am thinking inside so a daily blog is just what I need. Not because I want to, I must. My thoughts are begging to be heard before they are lost in the caverns of my mind.  |
| I don't want to talk too much about my classes, post, but school is going VERY well for me. I had to take a class that required me to gain an art appreciation and it could be accomplished by viewing at least six movies defined by the art department, so I watched Pride and Prejudice, Much Ado About Nothing, Citizen Kane, To Kill a Mockingbird, Ben Hur and Arsenic and Old Lace. I would have never know Then, you needed to attend the same number of art related events, so I saw Annie, the stage play; I saw The Messiah featuring the South Bend Symphony Choir, The South Bend Chamber Singers at the Church of Loretto, On a Holy Night, Art Beat 2007, and the Saga of Gold Hill Gulch. This is partly why I was absent; I had to complete all of these "events" and turn them in before the break. |
| What a sad state I have left my blog space in. The thing is that I have so many things going on, things that might be of interest to others to write about but I fail to do this which is why I will fail to write until it is required of me to do so. While I'm here, I might mention that I have recovered from my recent root canal procedures and the endodontist that I had was just EXCELLENT!!! My mouth has been in a sad state since 2003 and I can actually say that this is the first time in years that I have not drugged myself to deal with the pain. Lack of dental insurance is a travesty and tooth maintenance is greatly underated. I never want my kids to feel what I've felt for lack of insurance and a thin appreciation for dealing with tooth issues BEFORE it gets infected like mine were. But I digress. I only need one more next January but I am at peace for the holidays. Oh and the other reason why I wasn't writing here, besides my mouth, all the classes at school was the fact that my laptop crashed three months ago and I had to wait to replace the hard drive and other peripherals. Yeah, I know how to work on computers too.  It's funny how a lack of financial aptitude can bring out the other technical talents you were not aware that formerly possessed.  |
| As I sit and write this note, I think of the mounting crescendo of emotions as I saw my hospital stay drawing to a bittersweet close. I'd been hospitalized for two months in order to give her more time to gestate in the womb, and my body was now racked with the pains of birth, but that was nothing new to me. I had been in labor the entire time, and now, she was finally going to be coming to see me! If you could only see her, see how beautiful, bright and loving she is, you would know that she is so very blessed of God. Though she was born premature by seven weeks, she has not suffered any developmental issues; she seems to be more advanced and full of vigor than most, if you ask me! We have a few things planned for her today, probably go get her some breakfast, buy her some balloons (her favorite!) and cake/ice cream of course! I think we are going to plan her birthday party for the weekend, when more people can stop by and wish her a happy birthday. Well, I'd better get back to my little one...take care!  |
So, I try to be ready for the unexpected, but I wasn't ready when my computer took a dump on me over a week ago.  Fortunately for me, and the rest of the family, we have a "back-up" slower computer that me and my son now wrestle over. I'm not gone just working things out and trying to pass this philosophy class. I always thought that if I had a chance to take a philosophy class, that I would really dig the whole experience. I did and what makes this good for me is that it gives just one more thing that my husband and I can get into healthy discourse over. As Socrates said, "The unexamined life is a life not worth living" and you know, I think that more people should take the time to examine themselves. You'd be surprised, and maybe even delighted, in what you would find out about yourself. So, in closing, I miss you guys, and I hope you don't think I am being a jerk, just trying to get a few things together. Love to you and peace...~Adore |
| So, as I sat down to write in my blog after so much time, I wondered just where would I begin, and would anyone even give a darn. I have found that I have this self-demeaning quality about myself; it is supposed to help shield me from any deviations in the behavior of those I "know" or are around me. So, if I don't hear from anyone, then I can say that I wasn't expecting it anyway. And with my blog, if few people care about what I write, I have a low expectation for them to enter into my thinking or what I struggle with. I think Montaigne wrote about this way of thinking but he phrased it better than me.  I've been engrossed in my studies but I find that I really miss visiting WDC on a daily, hourly, minute by minute basis the way I used to. Sometimes, but only when I think of my visits here the way they were when I became a member back in 2004. I was so green and my eyes were wide open, just looking for friendship and understanding. I felt happy just thinking of signing on the site.The people that befriended me mostly are no longer here, and I find that the honesty is running low with many people. Back then, when people committed to a donation, they acted as if you lived in the same house with them. They were concerned with how you viewed them and would never think of bailing out without explanation. That's not the way it is now. Members will donate to an auction or to review an item, and just never show up. Oh, no, they don't leave the site; they stay here. They "see" you around and they never say a thing. It is so sad. And they continue to donate but they pick and choose who they make good on with their donations and those that they could give a second thought about. I find all of this so disconcerting and just find myself limiting my time here for awhile. Not gone, not going to leave, just limiting myself while I mull it all over.  |
  Happy Labor day!!!! Last holiday for awhile till Halloween, which will be a blast this year since our little one is learning more and more with each passing day, and our son will be sure to to try to scare his little sister. *sigh* Just keeps us on our toes all the way around. |
| I keep getting these annoying notes to post, but they are only sent because i set it up when I set up my blog. I wanted to make sure I wrote on here everyday, and I've done a lousy job of writing down a few things that happen with me. I am such an introvert when it comes to revealing myself on a scheduled basis! I've been sick lately, and I never have seemed to get my strength up to really do the things I'd like to do here. But on the other hand, I'm not some recluse who doesn't live if I'm not here; I do have my kids and my hubby to keep me busy. Oh, and I have school! How can I leave that out?! I do have an A average and I am sure that much of my stress comes from maintaining so much for the school stuff, and I also have this love of safety issues. Well, I used to be a safety consultant before I started staying home with my daughter, but I have to keep my mind busy, so I read up on those types of things. And, I am writing some poetry again. I MUST these days because I am feeling so emotionally pulled on outside areas of my world. My sister-in-law and her boyfriend are feuding and my husband works side by side with him, and he tells him everything! We are SOOOOO tired of hearing how the other one is doing them wrong...they both are wrong here but this IS a post that should be a stand alone rant, that's for sure. See? I told that have stuff to write about, but that's the story of my life. I never just stop and document, and that's why I am not a writer to this day. |
Well, I'm a few days away from my final accounting class even though we start Economics, so maybe I should not rejoice just yet.  It was challenging but getting this far has been something of a challenge so I just need to keep my face to the wind, and try to keep focused. *sigh*On a good note, I finally got the wireless router set up so I can use my notebook all over the house and not have to be at the computer desk area. I desperately need a few minutes or more away from the kids sometimes so I can get my thoughts together better...Lord knows I need to. Whew, only a few more days before we start the next Hummingbird auction. I plan to put it out for others to hopefully bid in. It's not as long as I would have liked but we crawl before we walk. And at some point, when we are ready, we pick up our legs to run. I hope that is what will happen with our group. |
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