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IT TAKES ONE A LONG TIME TO BECOME YOUNG

by njames51

Rated: 18+ · Book · Other · #1407297

These are my rambles, my thinking as I grow younger and younger.

This book is about life on earth. Or actually about MY life on earth. Not what I DID, or where I have lived, or which emotion I have wrestled to master. (Well, maybe some of that I suppose.) I mean I have to scribble about something, don't I? Mainly I want to think, and think, and write a book about my thinking. Thoughts can offer opinions, commentary, artwork, humor, debate. I just want to talk, silently. About why I live, where I came from and why I was given days and years and people and dreams and sadness and how none of this was or is a coincidence. THAT'S what this is all about.

I'm docked at Talent Pond's Blog Harbor, a safe port for bloggers to connect.

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njames51

Jun 6, 2014 at 1:22am
In response to "Was Sgt. Bowe Bergdahl not "worthy"?"

I agree. Why believe at all.

drifter

Jun 5, 2014 at 11:56pm
In response to "Was Sgt. Bowe Bergdahl not "worthy"?"

It is certainly not a very good litmus test for who believes correctly. Why believe anything at all if there is no reason to forgive and rescue.

esprit

Jul 24, 2008 at 8:44pm
In response to "MAYBE MY HEART IS CALM - REVIEWING"

I am not interested in disecting a poet's lines to such a grade school level - noting where verbs are wrong or adverbs are in the wrong spot and flogging writers with punctuation demands.

I don't do this with fiction, either. I don't like it done to me, so I just don't.

It's cool to have your work in a newsletter, mine's not good enough. boohoo, others get several pieces included in the same edition. I thought they were supposed to keep it to one per member. They must be pretty good writers. Ah well, it's okay. I'll just have to include my own, I guess. Self-promote.

You know, I think I got two thank you's from writers I included in the last four newsletters. Do they think it's a right to be there, or my obligation to include them, or what? Maybe I'm just choosing badly. lol

njames51

Jul 14, 2008 at 3:36pm
In response to "MAYBE MY HEART IS CALM - REVIEWING"

Hahaha......thank you kindly. I think I'm O.K. And you're O.K. too.

E-mail me, tell me what's going on....you in better spirits lately?

I hope so.

Oh, hey....they put one of my poems in the latest Spiritual Newsletter.........didn't know a thing about that......but there it was.

COOL! So far, I've had two or three highlighted in the Spiritual Newsletter....and three selected for the Poetry Newsletter. I didn't even submit them for consideration - being in the Poetry Newsletter is the BOMB! Kansaspoet included me in his recent Newsletter, and helped edit my piece so it was just right. he's a sweetheart!

esprit

Jul 14, 2008 at 2:05pm
In response to "MAYBE MY HEART IS CALM - REVIEWING"

I like your 'own' self.

esprit

Jun 25, 2008 at 10:29am
In response to "DOUBTING MYSELF"

Ah, the old demon - Doubt - raises its ugly head. He's at my house regularly.

When you have a moment, look this over. It might help a little.

"Invalid Entry"

The second reason is the lack of confidence in your writing abilty.
Read a badly written story.

njames51

Jun 12, 2008 at 3:01am
In response to "EXCELLENT REVIEWERS - PAUL REVERE HAS ROUSED THE DEAD"

Yeah, I've been tired alot lately, plus my problems even logging on here........

esprit

Jun 6, 2008 at 9:17pm
In response to "EXCELLENT REVIEWERS - PAUL REVERE HAS ROUSED THE DEAD"

Most of the posted work is poems, I guess cause they're short and simple to do. Daily counts appear to be the priority.

Oh, and another thing.

WHEN PAUL REVERE mounted a borrowed horse and sped off toward Lexington, Mass., was he acting as a hero or a traitor? It all depends on your perspective.

Many members consider detail in observation, critiquing, and suggestions as negative, so you really can't blame them for not wanting them.

But, by golly, I've reviewed books that were put up for self-publication, and felt so bad for the writers. I felt bad that not one of their 'friends' had told them of any issues. I found out why after I reviewed them though. They would rather blame someone else for 'saying' it needs work than looking at it again. Since their 'friends' all said it was perfect, it was. Okay. I don't care either.

Did I tell you about the piece that magically became 'perfect' overnight, without any rewrite being necessary? A miracle!

I got my Lexapro today. He said give it four weeks, so he gave me samples to last until then. I've got my fingers crossed. You know all these groups to encourage and help depression victims? Why do they make it so hard on those not in the groups? Those that plead for others to treat everyone the same, don't.

Can I cuss in your blog?

I'm okay and you're okay. I'm good. I'm okay. I don't want to read one more piece that needs work. I'm going to stick to those perfect pieces that everyone else finds - somewhere. I'm tired of the stress. I'm tired of trying, I'm just tired.

njames51

Jun 6, 2008 at 7:30pm
In response to "EXCELLENT REVIEWERS - PAUL REVERE HAS ROUSED THE DEAD"

YEP, I've been checking over there more....and whoosh........like an Oklahoma wind plowing over the flatlands, all of a sudden, every damn book draft, chapter draft, draft, draft, draft has suddenly been hog-tied and given some fine, detailed examination. And the old faces have returned - finally.

Now.....if we can just get more Quality Poetry Reviews........Poetry gets barely a breath of Public Recognition on the PRP, and if made Public, the reviews are barely 300 words. But the FINE Poets on the site are too busy WRITING the best, and don't want to dilly-dally looking at drivel - especially free or blank verse. They want classical forms - sonnets etc.

I've read some mighty fine poems since joining and through my Review Forum......but it's hard to get these folks recognized (and I don't have the GP's to buy Badges or Awardicons. I just send them GP's (200) with my review. Maybe soon I can purchase $20.00 worth of GP's so I can get some of these fantastic poems recognized.

esprit

Jun 6, 2008 at 6:03pm
In response to "EXCELLENT REVIEWERS - PAUL REVERE HAS ROUSED THE DEAD"

You will see some fine reviews on the public page if you look at last night and this morning. I hope they're still coming in. And you're right, I see members I haven't seen up there in a long time. It did my heart proud!

You know, writers pay real cash for the same kind of reviews I do here for free, and they appreciate the help.

March 30, 2008 at 7:18am

#576456

First Entry at 3:00 a.m.

FIRST ENTRY- is this exciting or what? Wonder if the world keeps journals. I never had diaries with secret, hidden crushes on boys locked away in a pink book with a hidden key. DUH....I always thought that was darn right stupid. I just wrote about things in public pages and didn't care who read the stuff. Besides I spent most of my childhood being the youngest, the shyest, the daydreamer - and ALWAYS on alert for my older sister; who's release from pent-up anger was to pin me to the ground and pinch me, turning the pinch as she dug into me. I weighed 100 lbs.....she weighed over 200lbs with a face pockmarked by zits and scars.

She made my childhood miserable...........and my older years.........and my really older years. Always in trouble, always a manipulator, always a con artist. A PAIN IN THE BUTT.

She died last year in Hospice, with me sleeping next to her in a chair, after putting a rosary in her hand - telling her it was o.k........The Blessed Virgin was right there with her, and she was safe.

And in that most quiet of evenings, I have ever known, with a calmness and peace so present in that room - her soul left and quietly flew off with the Angels. The nurse came in and whispered, that she felt my sister had JUST left - I remember telling the Hospic manager, how Quiet it was that night, and I had wondered WHEN the soul decides to leave the body. Looked at my sister, eyes wide open looking up (she was looking at SOMEONE or SOMETHING), and she had a grin on her face.

Funny how the circle closes, how someone could torment you for years, yet, she was loyal to me, and I was loyal to her. She was not alone when her soul left. Our family (HER family) loved her, despite
her years of trouble, addiction, bitchiness, meanness, horrifying wicked sense of humor, and everything that came along with having a wackie one in the family.

We still love her, and know she "once was lost, but now am found....she was blind, but now she sees"..............

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