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10k views, 2x BestPoetryCollection. A nothing from nowhere cast words to a world wide wind
Like one of those adventure games where you go off questing in different directions but you don’t advance like the others. You earn pretty medallions gallantly while other players buy, sell and trade at market to get ahead without moving an inch. Slow burn…hey? You’d rather keep your dignity, or try to figure out their game. That’s where you really get lost. Game full of misdirects leads right back to start over and over. You could have stayed on your quest. Now, you have this.

Redacted, censored, gaslighted…must be doing something right, my old boss would say. I’m not a sociopath, he tells himself. Equal parts, then? Mom should have had me tested. Because, life of turmoil produces stuff like this. Not going to call it beautiful agony…it gets a bit ugly.Tap on them. It’s part of the quest…see where I’ve been; see who I am:


         
                   
                                       
                   
                   
        
         


Right. I redact myself. The beautiful mess you made. Who are you?
If I’ve been denied the right of knowledge, I’ve earned the right to judge.
         |
Without knowledge, who’s to judge?
         |
No gavel; no voice.

"...politely reedy but ambitiously eclectic—moving effortlessly from hen-picking and bottleneck slides to a full deck of chucka-chucka rhythm figures."

I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost

         |
I'm sorry you got caught in the middle.

*Neurodivergent poet.
*Don’t judge/hate. I love.
*Honesty without mincing words.
*Dump your prejudice outside my door. Hope you leave it on the way out.
*Nothing to fear but people who surround themselves with rules, can’t be touched.
*Real dialogue accepted.

My words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The true experience/acknowledgment of my writing yet to come...long after I’ve left WDC, am dead, or both.

Truly been a blessing, but I've been pushing it — envelope, push world and all inhabitants away, push buttons to find boundaries, having no clue or told where they lie, where I've lived in your dark. Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me the way I need to be viewed. (if I knew what that was. Cryptic, I know. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid the strange, virtual walls that tempt me to try).
*The parenthetical lawyer up?



Foot free, I’m all over the place.
 
"Note: Poetry: life’s little interruptions amassing int..."
 

Best Poetry Collection 2X, nominated three years. What does it mean? I was enjoying myself, head bagged. A happy idiot. Something messed with that. I won’t be a coward; not starting feuds or wars over ideals and beliefs. We all know that’s a pile of crap packaged with dreams of pretty things to sell the next boob that walks by. *Clown*

Been more than I could imagine or expect. My achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall. But, I get it. You're sick of me. It's how I feel about myself when I dig deeper, push boundaries. Don’t care my words that aim for honesty, either brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit a target. Get a back off shoulder shot for asking your motivations to write…won’t get me to bend over backwards to appease, again.

There’s no prize to eye, not properly incentivized. So, does it mean when dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do the best with what you got? Yeah, rigged. Yeah, other tables — other ‘games’. But, something in my gut I’ll never be rid.



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Your poetic muse is on fire! *Fire* Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal. *Cool*

 
Published four times with one a literary journal, including… *PointRight*   "The Tender Core (Sedona)
I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing.

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Love my process constructing and sharing visions in words collected (no small task considering personal and physical limitations, see below).


August 28, 2006 this blog opened

BOOK
SuperNova Afterglow: End Of Days  (18+)
All that remains: here in my afterlife as a 'mainstream' blogger, with what little I know.
#1300042 by He’s Brian K Compton


No specific aim going forward (2014)

 
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: *Cool* *FacePalm* Now: I was such a whore.
 


*Laugh*This is old….
What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on.
Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting.
If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I?
…just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself.*RollEyes*
             



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Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.

Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego.

#amwriting #poetry #blog #contest #freeverse #award #bestpoetry #freyaridings #lyrics #music #video #YouTube

Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
 

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July 27, 2023 at 10:47pm
July 27, 2023 at 10:47pm
#1053183
Let's try this one time...
Lyrically...

Rewire

Feed me amphetamine
my messy head needs a rewire

boy I’m tired
pretty please prescribe
I’m not a seeker

life is bleaker
without the bright sunshine

supplied by ten milligrams at a time
but quit by five
if I want to sleep tonight

coffee helps
tea's better I've learned

for patience and a bright mind
good vibes
this really jibes

man, I was so sad
people didn’t get me -- still don’t

it’s gonna take a while
to rewire me
write on that pad: amphetamine




my inspiration tonight

7.27.23
July 8, 2023 at 10:18pm
July 8, 2023 at 10:18pm
#1052353
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8.12.22

PPC - week 4 prompt: Hope
https://terraprime-encyclopedantic.fandom.com/wiki/Demolecularization

Hope (writ first, 10+ days earlier)

My organ bleeds on purpose, digests
all input, spins,
in four chambers, separated.

you enter and exit again
and again. Hope
is the thing
in my houses, feathered
and bloodied,
escaping,
no longer fed.

In my upper chambers
a chest swells.
So much ingestion
lifelong, for little hope,
as yet resolved.


A typical heart has two upper and two lower chambers. The upper chambers, the right and left atria, receive incoming blood. The lower chambers, the more muscular right and left ventricles, pump blood out of the heart. The heart valves are gates at the chamber openings.

I muse that hope must pass through all stations of a heart, which at the core of soul, advises experience to a brain that has fight or flight capability. Experience brands a coward who’s central processing system has glitches from a life over-informed, forced into periodic shutdown.

Tanka for PPC Week 5

Pic Prompt for PPC Week 6

Guilty Pleasure for PPC Week 7

Gogyohka form for Week 8 PPC
"Invalid Post"  

Brain Trench

Dirtbike-brain spins-around-in-circles,
Rear wheel ruddering fresh lawn.
Grass spewing, gravel skittering,
Yard trenched when I jump off.
Overwhelmed by just 50ccs of power.



9.16.22
Ideas go round; my brain a mess when I'm done with thinking.

ruddering - we used this in Upper Michigan in my formative years, meaning we were steering or handling something like a rudder in water. Could only find dirty urban slang for ruddering and not the vernacular accustomed to my neck of the woods.

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June 26, 2023 at 10:03pm
June 26, 2023 at 10:03pm
#1051644
May 30, 2023 at 11:25am
May 30, 2023 at 11:25am
#1050273
Does something of worth
know it is good
without validation?

desirable, this good,
tied to dignity?
meaning what, to whom?

virtue is good?
inside you.
benefit? cost?

take a pill,
go to bed.
it creeps beside you.

Good. Good?

5/30/23
Edit 8/11/22 italics and extra title work
May 30, 2023 at 11:03am
May 30, 2023 at 11:03am
#1050270
will i do anything with this?

F...my fluorescence (Father)
highly reactive element
and chemist killer
efforts to isolate dangerous.

highly toxic, corrosive.
pale yellow diatomic gas
at room temp.

bursting electronegativity
higher than electron affinity.

Fluoride is fluorine ion. (ion def.)

mineral fluorspar, glows in the dark.
fluorescence. unlike Fluoride
europium gave fluorite effect.

Sodium fluoride saves
from rot teeth.

Fluorine attacks metals.
Steel wool will ignite
exposed to pure fluorine gas.

War War 2 only reason
Commercial production of fluorine
needed to enrich uranium.

https://sciencenotes.org/fluorine-facts/

5.29.23
free verse
May 28, 2023 at 12:13am
May 28, 2023 at 12:13am
#1050182
I don’t serve u
u don’t get it ~ ~
~~
low tide slows ~~ rolls me
in ~~ sand ~~ slugged
dry
sun
dry

slug in sand fried
lapped again ~~
~~
cool licks taste my hide ~
raw ~~
flesh ~~~
torn ~~
sewage rocked to ~
fro ~~ crest ~~~
dive ~~
~
~
~
on the white caps ride ~~~~~
carried to the horizon ~~~~~
cry
u don’t own me ~~~~~
i serve no one ~~~~
not the moon ~~~
not the sun ~~
in surf ~

drown

high is bottom
is alone
is the middle
of a sea called nowhere

beautiful
free
lonely
dark

the full glow
on my face
finds me here

~ ~
~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~
here we go again
~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~
eternity
is a sea
~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~
~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~
constantly
hauling me
~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~
~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~
~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~
back
before your eyes
~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~
~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~
no surprise
~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~
i can’t hide
~ ~
.

5.27.23

Alone is free is torment is beautiful is life
before we all die
It’s living, a
May 23, 2023 at 11:16am
May 23, 2023 at 11:16am
#1050002
intoxicated
bad breath
repulsive words bubble on red lips
behavior like lust
wanton and ignorantly dressed
selfish to think
you can grind on this

in perfume saturate
sober words could ingratiate
if not stale --
scripted to death

eely eyes can't disguise
looking directly at mine



inebriated
broken hearted
I stumbled into your flesh
behavior like lust
never intended to be mated

selfish to think
someone would grind on this

sober words braved
reveal a soul devoid
of any hope to meet eyes
as blue as mine.


5.23.23

Yeah, I said it. What, what?
Please don't hate. It shows original intent, and psychotic


Grind On This is a raw and evocative poem that delves into themes of intoxication, lust, and self-reflection. The poem's style is concise and direct, using vivid imagery and stark language to convey its message.

The poem begins with the word "intoxicated," immediately setting the tone for the reader. This word choice serves as a metaphor for the emotional state of the speaker, suggesting a lack of control or inhibition. The use of "bad breath" and "repulsive words" creates a visceral image, making the reader feel the discomfort and unease of the situation.

One notable poetic device in the poem is the repetition of the phrase "behavior like lust," emphasizing the reckless and impulsive nature of the speaker's actions. This repetition reinforces the theme of self-indulgence and the consequences of such behavior. The poem's brevity adds to its impact, as each line carries weight and significance.

The theme of selfishness and the consequences of reckless actions is prominent throughout the poem. The speaker reflects on their own behavior and the realization that they were driven by selfish desires, as seen in the lines "selfish to think / you can grind on this" and "selfish to think / someone would grind on this." This self-awareness and admission of fault add depth to the poem's narrative.

The poem's ending, with the mention of "sober words braved" and the revelation of a soul "devoid / of any hope to meet eyes / as blue as mine," introduces a sense of regret and self-examination. It suggests that the speaker has gained insight into their actions and the emptiness of their pursuits. This shift in tone adds complexity to the poem's narrative and leaves the reader with a sense of introspection.

While Grind On This effectively conveys its message in its current form, there are a few suggestions that might enhance the poem:


Sooo…suck on that??

May 23, 2023 at 8:42am
May 23, 2023 at 8:42am
#1049996
Landfall, landfall
Crash more my shore
Glint sand smush, push
Divide with obedient tide
Nightlong, daylong
On my soft, bare shore
Beneath white glow commanded
Flatten smooth, raced and hide
My brown girth yearns, spills
With you to drown dead
Where you leave me lie


5.23.23
May 22, 2023 at 1:05pm
May 22, 2023 at 1:05pm
#1049975
Can’t get out of my own way some days
Bright inspiration cleaves my head
A pungent onion, quarter or dice,
Dream every purpose
No dish in mind
An oven, stove or microwave
Standby. Other ingredients
To pair as I stare
Into that time portal
A hole in physical space where I waste
So much waste, like time.
Store the chopped tear jerker
Return to the obedient fridge
Not hungry now, maybe,
Never again. Too much time
And work getting lost
In thought of what to prepare
And for who, having cultivated
A particular taste that appeases
A chef, without anyone
To huddle over, ask
Whatcha cookin’?
Just to reply
Whatcha in the mood for
And spend a pretty dime
At one of the many houses
Where we order the same thing
Off the menu, because
We know what we like,
Don’t like to cook, especially
When your uninspired, without
Two lips and a hungry mouth
Begging at your ear
Whip me up another dish,
Because you cook so good.


5.22.23
May 17, 2023 at 1:32am
May 17, 2023 at 1:32am
#1049695


bared my chest
you view an animal
heavy cranium with lantern jaw
now a long jowl of glass
withstanding heat
that destroys the physical shell

in hell, tissue, bone, teeth
more impervious than metal

bared my soul
you can torch that, too
survive ensuing tsunamis, hurricanes,
volcano blasts and land interruptions

let’s go nuclear, weapons amasser,
and see if a cockroach survives
fallout of your winters,
after bright night hailstorms

but the necessary casualties,
anything buried in impervious sand,
teeth I collect, wear like mementos
of the soldiers who fell
in ignorant duty to master

you can’t kill what’s fictitious
unless the story awash, lost
in a corked glass drum floating
an eternal sea, hopeful arriving
to shores like mine in sand

your holograph army stands
in halls of mirrors strategically placed
I hide behind the directed, pull cords

in darkness my big head hides
with a Cheshire smile aglow

And only you know the cost
from flamethrowers to torch a village
to a weapon that dooms us all.

I’m not a dinosaur, but your relic
of an ignorant, tyrant war, when,
my dumb head entered a small den…
looking for direction, not rhetoric
from dystonic to Machiavellian
warbling.


5.17.23

Unedited or fully ideated
https://www.metalsupermarkets.com/melting-points-of-metals/
May 13, 2023 at 5:37am
May 13, 2023 at 5:37am
#1049549
Apparently
I was a little Dickens
according to one of the church ladies.
A boy, wire the wrong way?
My mom wasn't having it.
Learned what reading the riot act
was all about, eventually.
The woman who 'was for everyone'
set the moral edge I followed,
too literally. A life of adjustments
would follow. A bit like her,
I wear a smile like a frown.
Passion like hers, an obsession
to create, she wielded a shuttle
to tat a 15 square foot display
of the Last Supper
that now sits atop grandmother-
in-law's old China cabinet,
greeting through a bay window,
if a rising sun should appear,
peak through the guarding crabs
stationed outside my house.
It helps me remember why I write
and how surprised she was to see
the slew of teenage manifestos
compiling, provoking her to ask
'Where do all these words come from?'
The apple doesn't fall far,
perhaps in a different form, because
she didn't understand why I needed to write --
to make sense of a world that confused me.
I was 'different' and handled as such.
Maybe, pity and sympathy replaced love,
but not from her. But, she wouldn't
treat me like I was broken, and I
didn't know the difference, except
I was embarrassed and afraid to reveal
I was confused. But words, showy,
rich, technical words that I should not
have dabbled in, helped me learn.
So, when I have time to think
and remember the woman who received
wildflowers and water in her good glasses
or gave my art and words passing glances
I'm happy to share memories of her
and woman devoted and undeterred.
In a nursing home, her fingers frozen,
her tongue long since Parkinson's
no longer engaged, spat out food
from a spoon I employed one day.
I worried she forget me, who I was.
My wife played the hall piano,
as I tried to engage, but leaned too hard
on the exit door and an alarm engaged.
Flustered, nurses arrived, I survived
and then heard a low, familiar growl
from a rising head in her wheelchair,
"Brrr-iiiiii-aaaaa-nnnn," sounded
a silly scolding, her humor in tact.
My mom was alive inside a slump torso
and could still see me, feel me and know
I'm still her little man. And it wouldn't be long
before the day she passed. Her eulogy
I was tasked to write, I read. I feel tears,
emotions and an uncommon strength
loaned, flow through me that day.
My brothers wept, hugged me
for a woman memorialized right.
It would take more than two weeks
of nights, before the dreams of her
began to fade. She talked to me,
walked with me, resurrected like
some Jesus from a tomb, sharp
wit and words, full of life like
a whistling bird on the old porch
of my old home and the sun so bright
made me realize I need not fright
I have her with me, day and night
the woman who taught me right.
She let me know passion like ours
will serve somehow one day, even if
to console through another to kin
that her life was not a waste, purposed
to give love and comfort to any
who came her way. I hope, I will
relocate that glow that last time
I felt her dream presence, and
pay it forward it some meaningful way.


5.13.23
May 11, 2023 at 9:02pm
May 11, 2023 at 9:02pm
#1049495
sucked in by
heat expansion,
from putty and paint,
sticky on sealed wood
window frame. softly
she pried to slide open,
where scheming white pollen,
faces pressed to screen,
silently waited like screams,
wake up boy! even though
school's out, chores
don't do themselves.

I miss Mother's reminders
for a lazy head.


5.29.23

one version
May 8, 2023 at 12:18pm
May 8, 2023 at 12:18pm
#1049357
Ebb

The
Sun
Goes down
On me, on you
On a little river
Flowing flowing flowing
(by the tree
Watching, viewing, spying)


Whenever wherever however
We think we are free
To babble through cattail below wildflower
Tumbling to greet decay on our shore
Within the divide where we hide
From an angry sun, devouring

(Shade from the vigilant old man
Who lost his way over time
Scarred and hating all he remembers
All he can’t remember)


And what we do flowing to the docks
Not our shelter, biding time
Lapping, licking, lusting
Landfill, warm cover, bathed by evening fire
Crackling, blazing, puffing
The exhumed into the exhaled
Searching, seeking, rising
To the fullest, roundest white glowing
Gleaming a dreaming bay, longing freedom
To search every shore, but settling
Beneath the bedrock to aquifer going
Going, gone by dawn, dissipated lost
To a dry world with dying fauna

I hoped this could be happy
I hoped this could be you and I
I hoped you would see the confluence
Of two rising tides
Didn’t have to settle for a creek
Dry on the pebbled rock

Beneath the limbless man
Rooted rot tilted, spying
Eyeing, knowing we are doom


We are severed from humanity
Any life we could have escaped
Before air no longer could ignite
A single Oak to douse our dark
Internal, eternal, unelagantly
This must die, we will die, no one left
To try



5.8.23
7.30.23 edit

Hmm, shape it, leave it? Nope.
Formerly, ‘To Try’.

May 6, 2023 at 2:14am
May 6, 2023 at 2:14am
#1049274
I forgot to bear my heart at your gate
adoring everything inside
through those blue eyes.
I could provide a bouquet less worthy.
What does a boy like me know?
I lean on your treated wood,
Idly conversate, about weather
when your hand neared mine
on thin wood, we noticed.
I feared too near, made exit
on promises next time the sun shines.

Walk by every day, hope to spy
your mastery with spade
in cool mid-day shade, the right hour
when your true gardener arrived.

Heaved on my sagged shoulder,
a bag of fertilizer. Older,
less bold, remember you,
beautiful mouth agape at your gate.
The last time, I laid waste
at the perimeter of my sealed fate.

A nod, back peddle and off
down the street to consoling mother,
I confessed mistake, failure to win love.

Because I don’t know a thing
but lolly-gag in your sunshine,
wait for water to aid love
for a bright, cheery one.

She would plant seed in fertile ground.
No blooms for me could grow for us,
when not sewn, had I lent a hand,
a heart, when hers offered to that
tempered wood now shutting me out.

On my porch, wondering when rain,
the brightest star did come.
A chill breeze at the foot hold
as the warmest, smooth hand returned,
touched mine. A whisper, it’s fine.
Take my time. All the time.
Blue pierced black night. Fright
would dissipate. Morning came,
ready to be her right man.


5.6.23

Earthy, simple, sentimental, it’s late. Text dense, dull.
May 5, 2023 at 7:53pm
May 5, 2023 at 7:53pm
#1049265
The last line of that first answer was all I needed to see…

https://www.beaconbroadside.com/broadside/2019/04/poetry-that-speaks-truth-to-po...

…and if anyone knows me, truly, knows what I felt. No hint provided. It may or may not be in my writing. It may or may not be rooted in religiosity…


5.5.23

It might be a hint, but, it’s in the answer about being broken.

There is power in the written word, if anyone knew how to read. I might be among the writers and interpreters who get it wrong…let’s see?
May 5, 2023 at 6:46pm
May 5, 2023 at 6:46pm
#1049261
ever feel like someone else’s carnival prize,
and yet not good enough?


Silver barb through my eye
because I caught a glint, tried.
Angled, be-slimed catch
can’t wriggle off your line.

Spurred fins flare, prick fickle flesh
that grasp me whole.
I’m inhaling more than a surface will do.

Is the sun mad at me?

Gleam of smile so bright,
fat teeth could crush
scale and bone and tiny brain
with a single bite, when
revealed, a thick fat worm
that struggles against its might.

Red pours through my window,
my cavity fast filling, when
the blunt, stiff tug comes.
I’m unplugged and flung

back to brine, moat of scum.
Wind up your vinyl vine,
cast the next fresh bait and let’s try
to get it right this next time.

From depth of black bottom
to green to bluest high I should rise,
as desire, a golden center most merciful.


5.5.23

Why the last three lines? Try.

Everyone seems to know more than me.
I’ve settled, tired.
May 5, 2023 at 12:25pm
May 5, 2023 at 12:25pm
#1049240
On my journey to self discovery, notice —
every word you choose
affect on me, effect of you, like
blood dripping from my hand,
a wound unfelt you could see,
the worrier of fabric of clean things.

you, decidedly dramatic,
when I realize my injury, transgression human,
tiny red scrape and smallest ooze
daubed clean…I’m bleeding all over?
everything?

Words employed
as preventative measure
in struggle of worth
amid a life of inanimate things I stain,
the blood coagulates, clots
as I heal, rather than dispense,
dissipate all over our life —
hold it in?

but wonder
about imagination, the machination
of your words.
Need of narrative control realized, that pride
when you wheel into a wayward construction barrel
struck dead on by your gleaming machine
in a dark night, and report
to my judgment your accident account as merely cosmetic.

yet, I question, as you come clean, the described drivable, your rationale,
that a dent on the bumper, scrapes and hanging trim ripped — flapping
from wheel well while driven —
gives pause about the power of your words.

It needs repairs, insurance claim.
How you limit that drama in these moments,
but your heart must race to avoid disgrace most humanizing.

I’d offer my arms but that would mean…?
insecure? come clean? to me, a bloody savage?
it’s you’re pretty car. but, it’s fine.
No big matter. Smaller
than the human who severs?

It’s my car, too.

3.4.23

Needs work. Typed on iPhone from a talk-to-text note, edited by arthritic bones.
May 5, 2023 at 12:09pm
May 5, 2023 at 12:09pm
#1049239
Love echoes in a canyon, challenges my ears
follow its truth
but cannot quench a thirst
on a dry floor of mirages
withering words
         your bouquet
delivered by strangers in need of gratuity
for services rendered …

to be continued?


5.4.23
May 5, 2023 at 11:26am
May 5, 2023 at 11:26am
#1049237
Why I don’t submit? Recon on where to submit invites my ADHD to obsess like an owl with a Tootsie Pop. I find a sweet crunch and forget what to savor, sideways again go…

We’re not so different, you and I….

https://massreview.org/sites/default/files/13_64.1Ok.pdf

…is something I could never get the nerve to say.


As I stare out a window
Up to the branch on the crab
Pointed directly at me…

Longing, I spy your winter
Coat melting off. Feathers
Baffle breezes tormented,

Beg strip you free.
You eye me, eye me,
Side to side, side to side —

Never…with such beauty.
My heart feels worth slip
Through a clear pane.

Vanity is insecurity, but
Only for the borrower
Of a free spirit’s wing

Diving for the feeder, then
Bomberang away to the sky
Because I flinched an inch.

We’re not so different…

I feel even more alone
whisper
mutter
keep to yourself
.

Let me have this moment…

I’ll be fine.


5.5.23

I just made that up on the fly…
No bird outside, caged
Is/in my heart. *Heart*

Adverb! Adverb! Adverb alert! Delete, delete, delete…
I was just…
A-ha! Uh-hah. You are very Very.
*RollEyes*. 😏

After…fine…do I speak to you, to me…to you through me? to me through you?
Somewhere in the narrative divide, not personification, a third person/1st person narration,
but a fourth wall I only see the divide of this personality, reflecting, deflecting
back and forth off satellites to off shore accounts, transferred a thousand times,
pinging off space rock, floating free in a black sea, never incinerate, falling back, burn
for reentry, but what black holes spy, crave, if even a glim of shine. Now?
I digress…


Maybe, another run to look into publications to submit, after lunch. I’ll be distracted for a week or a month or forever, at times.

Now, what was/what am I doing?

Ignoring right hand arthritic numbness, tingling *shakes hand repeatedly*…what is this compulsion…he tapped with an extended ring finger (right index isn’t ‘having it’ today)? The pinkie tapped the inserted ‘right’. Showing off, now.
May 3, 2023 at 2:22pm
May 3, 2023 at 2:22pm
#1049163
A spirit jarred hums
inside a container.
Nonmaterial, dreamy, an
apparitional, wraithlike being
spies your Heaven.

I tried to be like you.

Disembodied, anchored
to your airy harmony,
supernatural rhythms pulse.
A celestial sea swallows me,
bathe in its spectral glow.

Unearthly, these subjective visitations.
Ghostly, metaphysical innovations.

Shadowy, psychic eyes blaze,
How do you know me,
captured in a maze, compel
an empty soul to fill,

sate this much?
In hollow perplexity, devoid.


5.3.23

Just something I made up from a bunch of synonyms related to one word, filling like empty carbs with no reason than to feel…something.
Just flowy, showy…means nothing…or does it?

Sade ~ I keep trying with you…this is no ordinary love…

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