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| Life Update: These past few months, I’ve been trying to find medication that works for my severe depression, panic disorder, and OCD dark intrusive, obsessive and anxious thoughts. I was in a really really bad place for the past few months— I really didn’t think I was going to make it out alive— I truly believed I would commit suicide before I reach my 26th birthday in August. I still struggle with those thoughts, honestly. I still struggle with wishing I didn’t exist. BUT thankfully, within these past few days, my psychiatrist and I have found a medication combo that has been working for me! I actually have motivation to go down to the gym and work out every day, I’m becoming a better friend to my best friend. I’ve been getting out of the house more, despite absolutely hating with a passion the obese, fat slob I see in the mirror and am really really trying to make thinner through exercise. (Before, I literally left my house maybe 6 times a year for the past 3 years because my self esteem and anxiety has been so bad). I’m finally sleeping more than 2 hours a night, too! AND my anxiety has been under control enough to allow me to start learning how to drive! I have a few physical health issues I need to take care of and see specialists about, but hopefully those won’t need serious surgical fixes, so that I can find the right job and start working again and getting my life back on track! I’m seriously feeling more hopeful than I’ve felt in 4-5 years now— I forgot what having hope FELT LIKE. And I’m just so thankful to finally find medications that work for my mental health so that I can function like this again 😭😭😭 I’m in tears at how blessed I feel right now. Thank you, Jesus for this blessing!   Sorry for the novel— I don’t know if anyone actually cares about this stuff going on in my life, but I figured that I’d update y’all anyways. If anyone even reads this…. Idk. Maybe nobody cares and I shouldn’t be posting this. Idk, but I guess I just will anyways since it’s all typed out 😅 So…. Yeah…. Anyone who cares & reads to this point— thank you! I appreciate you  |
| Yay! It is always good to hear when people find the right combo for them. I am so glad you are digging out of that dark place. I am sure it isn't as hard to keep on going now that you can see the light on the horizon. |
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Congratulations! I'm so sad you went through such a terrible time, but I'm definitely happy that you've found a medication combination that is helping! Congratulations!  Keep up the great work!  |
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 You are back on track and things will get – dare I say it? – more better!  Improved sleep will continue to make a difference for you, too. I'm so happy you're back, and that you're comfortable enough here to share your story. I hope you'll always remember you are numero uno, chica! |
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