|WOW! Such powerful, raw emotions. It's sad what you had to go through, but I'm so glad you were able to write it out -- get it out the best way us, writers know how. It's therapeutic. Another way that it's therapeutic is writing it out by hand, and then setting fire to it. Watch it burn and with it all those emotions that took such a huge part of your life.
My dad use to say the same thing: "Don't get in fights, but if someone starts one, you better finish it! Or I'll be finishing it a home!"
What's strange is daddy would beat the heck out of us with a belt, but he never believed hitting in the face. That carried on to me in fighting. I didn't like hitting in the face. Of course. as I got older and on my own at such a young age, I learned to do what I had to just to stay alive. Doesn't mean I liked it though. I was a short, little badass, simply because I knew if I wasn't something bigger and badder would come after me and I was far away from my family and friends.
I like you, was glad when that period of my life was over. But I had learned to survive like that, so some of it hung around and completed me as who I am.
I'll always choose peace over fighting/arguing. I'm happy to say during all my trials and errors, I have evolved.
Thanks so much for sharing your intimate writing with us. I appreciate YOU, also!