***The word
"and" in the title
should be capitalized.
***The opening sentence, while packed with important information, does not flow well. You might consider rephrasing with without so many "and's", and perhaps break it into two separate sentences. Maybe begin a new sentence with the statement "
Then the worst thing
that could happen
did." (I also suggested a spelling correction and a couple of words that would make the sentence read better. They are noted in green.
***In the first paragraph, twice you wrote: “Why?” But not as dialogue. You may want to instead, write it this way:
'why?' The italics shows the reader it is not a verbally spoken word.
***Here, I am suggesting a comma:
"...and as I grew older (comma) I still could not understand..."
***Here there is a misspelling:
"...ThanThen I realized..."
***In the second sentence of paragraph two, it would read smoother without the word
"Now" at the beginning.
***Two suggestions here, indicated in green:
"...I have felt the majesty of God (comma) for he..." The word "he" should be capitalized since it is in reference to the Lord.
***A comma needed here:
"...I have never lost the sorrow (comma) but..."
***In the second paragraph, there are two instances where you used the word
"his" referring to God,
they should be capitalized.
I also notice this throughout the piece. To save us both time and effort, I suggest you look the whole story over, and in any instances of "he, him, his, father, etc" referring to the Lord, capitalize them all.
***In this sentence, you use the word "mind" twice. I would eliminate the second instance or phrase it differently, as it seems redundant:
"God has given us ears to listen, minds of our own, mind, flesh and soul."
***Comma needed in this one:
"...will never be broken (comma) for he..."
***Here, I suggest removing the indicated word:
"Now I was near death and I could feel myself slipping away." Again, this will help smooth out the way it reads.
***The phrasing here just doesn't sound quite right:
"They found me dead lying down." (perhaps, "they found me lying dead...") But then in the last paragraph you also mention that they find you dead. Maybe the two paragraphs should be combined so it only needs to be stated once, that they found you dead.
***Here I think you missed a word or two?:
"When they found (me in) my room I was dead," I added what I think may have been overlooked in green, for you to consider.