Deny the Lie (revised)

The pain of remembering and at the same time, living a lie under a mask of denial.

My world grew so small,
a tiny part of me
retained the truth.
The other denied,
and lived the lie.

Long years later, the she of me
crumbled from the inside out.
Still we lived the lie and
denied the truth.

"Why do you loathe yourself so?".
Startled, I let the truth leak out
and finally, denied the lie.

The world grew so large,
my fear grew with it.
The little one me, cried for us.
To live the lie was easy,
the truth might kill us both.

The sadness turned
to anger,pure energy
for us, the survivors
use to heal.

Power primed for
justice and revenge,
will be used to
deny the lie,
live with the truth.

We have pride.
We do survive.