Where Am I?

where do i stand?

I don't know where I am,
Or even where I stand.
I want to grab the Lord's hand.
I try with all my might,
I can't fight this unknown force.
This isn't an easy task,
For this force is hidden beneath a mask.
I've bid the Lord hello and farwell.
As i feel I'm going to burn in h***.
I have paid my fare,
Who will care for l have fallen.
No one is in sight,
So what's the use to fight?
I say goodbye life,
For my dream to be a wife is gone.
Farwell to all the strife
For I no longer have a life.