love or hate?

this is how it feels when wanting someone so bad..:D

I am swimming in the ambivalent waves of love and hate
drowning on the barren dessert of your bode
nothing grows only the bleak clouds hanging above my head
ready to pour rain at any moment
you drive me mad with the unquenchable thirst you brought
leaving my soul aflame with desire
nothing soothed..
nothing consoled..