One special guy

this poem is about hiding true feelings from a boyfriend

I can’t look into your eyes
Or even look at your face
I’m scared you may find
The feelings that have been replaced
You might even notice how much I think about him,
You might know that I miss
Kissing him
I berry these feelings so deep
To the point I can’t sleep
Scared you may see the way I hurt
And how I wish this thing between
He and I could have worked.
Scared to look in your face
You may find his name in a special place
And I continue to hide
The way I feel inside
And try to define
And deny the way I feel about
This one
This one special guy