You never know what goes throug a person's mind
|I've been given more than a second chance, I don't deny
But I end up doing the same destructive stuff
No matter how hard I try.
I do right for a few years and try and stay on track
Then that urge I get is like an ugly demon on my back.
If the Lord came and ended my life today,
Would I go to Heaven or Hell, I couldn't say.
But one thing I know for sure,
All this pain would go away, that I no longer can endure.
I've been locked away so long that I can no longer feel.
I don't mean in a prison of brick and steal,
I mean inside a plcae that is more solidly built.
Inside the prison of my own guilt.
Sometimes the only way I can cope,
Is to let my mind drift away.
To when I was a child with more carefree days.
To a time when I could laugh and love
But now my sins have filled my heart with hate.
And as you read this you may be move by compassion and even cry
But, please don't think you can fix me
Because it is too late.
As I lay here and feel the overdose in my vain
I thank God that this will be the last day of my pain.