you can see me

i needed a release. this is how i feel right now about my life i feel captured

You can see me

You can see my face
My  happy bubble
my mask
the persona I wear like a cursed black veil
hiding my truth
you cant see ME
my longing
my passionate heart yearning  to once more feel the warmth
burning through the blackened windows of my existence
you see a smile
you know not the horrid frown that propels it into existence
my inner struggle to fight what inside of me rages with anticipation to greet the new world that has been placed before me
but is held back by the very roots that grew me 
you can see me torn and blown by the notorious winds of change
fighting the hellish battle with my bitter sorrow
you don’t even know me
my frown my smile my laugh my cry
I am miserable still the show must go on 
And in the show are characters who make you laugh
Make you cry
Tear you like thin wisps of your imagination
I am the character smiling
The lead, the love, the life, and the laugh
You think you can see me