WHY?

the inside pain

why do we fight,
every friday night?
I lay my head on my pillow,
stare out my window.
I see your face
when i hear your favorite song.
When i see you,
i dont know what to do.
Why do i hide?
i found a reason for me
to change who i used to be.
and all the pain you put me through,
i wish it would all go away.
I'm not a perfect person,
so i have to say before i go,
i found a reason to show.
A side of me you will never know.
can you tell me.....
WHY?