In That Instant

Have you ever held someone up high only to find that the perfection was only an illusion?

You never notice
until it's too late
that you're burning
under the florescent lights-
listening to every word he says-
believing what he tells you-
hoping that he doesn't lie--
and then you find out
that he does...

Your world is changed--
in that instant-
the non existent telephone calls-
and untyped words-
of an e-mail
that he never even meant to send.

You can't make excuses
for him any longer-
He's too busy;
depression;
work to do...

You're forced to believe
that you aren't anything
was just-
something to boost his ego-
something to take up his time
(Second hour recess
from an otherwise
crushing reality).

Still though
there's that-
admiration-
that you can't get out of your head-
your soul.

And then
You need to tell him
that he'll find-
You wilt in the light
of no affection.

Work to do;
Too busy;
Depression.