I know that you know me

A bit of a calm after the storm, emotionally.

I'm sitting here, I'm writing this, but now I
know
that who I am is not what I've become.
The Sun yields stoic, steadfast J.
The Moon yields intense, emotional J.
Two sides of the same coin
coin,
The one I like to flip.
Both sides are the same, both sides are-
me.
So.
I'm shedding pretension and parody of self
(The music makes me smile)
I'm discarding disgust so it can dissipate
(The wind makes me smile)
I'm giving up the "ideal" to realize the
complete
perfect (whole)
unblemished soul.
And this also
makes me
smile.