Every author has their reasons, their likes, their quirks. Here's mine.
|There is nothing you can do that I have not already done to myself.|
-Never Wanted To Dance by: Mindless Self Indulgence
We don't just EMBRACE insanity here. We feel it up, french kiss it, and buy it a drink.
A blank piece of paper is God's way of telling us how hard it is to be God.
If you ask me what I came to do in this world, I, an artist, will answer you: I am here to live out loud.
Those are just some more apt words that define me a bit more than you can, but since they're already written, I cannot take them. Or can I? <_< >_> <_< *swipes*
The best way to describe my personality would be a mix of Batman's Harley Quinn, the WB's Freakazoid, and Neil Gaiman's Delirium.
While everything about me is black (clothes, hair, humor, taste in music) my outlook is ridiculously sunny in a demented fairy sort of way.
Why is this? That's long story. I started out sort of angry at people, and depressive in high school most of the time which led me more to the goth/emo genre. But, when that flood of hellish hormones passed, I felt a bit better about life. Now, its not fair - who said it was? - but I can learn to be somewhat content struggling with my own existence, as everyone does or they bite the bullet.
Suicide, while grand in a romantic sort of fashion, is not something I would do. Would I write about it? Of course! Will I think about it on a particularly horrid day? Sometimes. But I will not act it out. Because, at times of distress, I often hate myself more to ever allow myself that kind of freedom. Take that, Froid.
Art [the act of creation] is something I use to breathe. I draw, I write, I sculpt when I can, I color, I splice computer pictures, I photograph, and I play video games (which are forms of art) I watch movies, both indie and popular, and I listen to a mirage of music from black metal to indie pop. I generally don't interact with people. Why? Why should I?
Over time I grew to kind of accept people. They are what they are. Sometimes its ugly. Most of the time I find myself surprised. The subject of the Yin Yang concept hit me pretty hard about a year ago, and mostly I try to capture the duality in the delicate balance of nature in my work and even my spiritual beliefs.
I won't go into my 'religion' let's just say I dislike churches and any form of organized religion, dig crosses, and don't believe that Jesus was the son of God. Don't try to flame me on this, I won't change my mind.
[God's a woman, by the way]
Anyway, that's a general box in of what's basically me. I write pretty fancy, but trust me I trip over talking more then you'd think. Like, pronunciation fooks me up. So sue me.
Besides all that, I'm a free-for-all kind of chick. I'll respect what you believe [not to say that I'll agree] as long as you do me the same courtesy. I don't care what gender turns you on. Go for it. Be happy. Live the best you can, because when you're dead in the ground, what does it really matter then?
I won't let you get me down if that's your goal. Most likely I'll laugh at your attempt, and it'll just make me happier. You don't have to like me - but respect me enough to leave me the hell alone. Mmmkay?
This has been a disturbing session with the Little Cricket, minutes of your life she's not giving back to you. She might if you give her cookies, though, but you didn't hear that from me