Not TODAY

from DEEP BREATHS by Leo Shelton

I want to believe…
That there’s no place special
That I haven’t been
And that there’s no time worth having
No breath worth breathing
That doesn’t contain your DNA


I want to hope…
Those days without me
And days without you
Don’t turn pages of the calendar
Don’t become moments
Or seconds,
Or minutes
Or complete days….


I want to wish
For a complete replay of time
When birds and chirps
Echo in time
And ecstasy highs
Remain sublime
Even after you’ve walked away


I want to know
That waking up
Looking up
Reaching up
And falling asleep
Is all a part of the day?
And the way
That we love


But what I believed
And hoped,
And wished,
And the essence of what I knew,
Has passed like the season
With convoluted reasons
Into what is
And IS not
Your way…
Not for me
Not for another
Not TODAY!