heartbreak

a push and pull

I saw you standing there again
Waiting and wanting
Every step forward another heartbreak
Every step back another piercing pain
Drowning in my decision
Legs standing still, heart leaping forward
A stubborn push then pull
What’s left of me to give
any difference from before
I still need you, breath for you
You still have one foot out the door
My heart is in my hand broken
Can I stand to look away
Pull strength for one last goodbye
I stand here waiting and wanting
Legs moving heart beating
Walking walking toward strength