Stop!

This is still a work in progress......this is something I went through

One…
This feels like a good idea
An escape from the world
The only way out

Two…
Look at the bottle and nerves start to kick in
Catch a glance in the mirror and see a face of shame
Can’t wait to not see that face again

Three…
Silent voice screaming hatred in my head
Making me move faster
With nervous shaking hands

Four…Five
Here I go
Getting closer to my fate
Feeling my heart race
I just want to get away
To not feel the pain
I think about my life and want to give it away
Give it to someone who deserves it
Because that someone is surely not me
To watch it fade away
In a slow quiet death

Stop!