What Do You Want From Me?

After a period of DV and abuse, I was mad at everone, including the Lord.

You never seem to be around
When I need you the most
But what can I expect
From the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost?
I fight these feelings deep inside
Because I know you do not care
It’s hard to know what I feel
Because my heart feels so bare.
What do you want from me?
I yell with all my might
I feel like I’m sitting in the darkness
Looking for the light
You clearly want more than I can give
This I know for sure
I don’t know if we can go back
To the way we were before.