Unintentional pain

I have struggled with this personality trait my whole life

Nitpick, judge, overthink
Why do I do this to myself?
Find a flaw
Nitpick until destroyed
Judge, give a title
Attempt to perfect
Overthink it all
Repeat
Why do I do this to myself?
I know nobody is made of plastic or magic
I know it is impossible to turn into Barbie
I know I will never be that way
It’s exhausting
Tormenting
Unhealthy
But I can’t help it
Why do I do this to myself?
I wish I could let go
Forget
Accept
But it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever tried
Because all it leads to is more
Nitpick, judge, overthink