My Thoughts When He Vanished

Title says it all

How could she rip you away!?!
How could you let her???
I would of held on
Until my arms melted off.
You gave in so soon.
Am I not worth the trouble?

I suffered for you.
Beaten, mocked,
And you push it aside
Like nothing.

How dare she
Ruin all
I ever needed.

Now your gone
I cant stop
Hurting.

Where are you?
Come back!
Oh God please,
Come back....

I cant hide
Not again
You knew me
Did I ever know you?

Appear for me
I beg you
Just one more time
So can say good-bye
So I can run my hand through
Your hair
So I can hold your hand
So I can touch those lips again
So I can remember your final image

Stop
Fading!
I need our memories
To prove i can be
Happy,
Loved,
Understood.

I wont see you again
will I?
Oh God
What do I do?
How do I keep going?

I will burn
As I have been.
I will kill in others
What was murdered in me.

No.
I will suffer through and
Give and
Love.
I will not give up.
I will not be
You
Anymore.