Now

after a heart break inspired by my friend, Jeff Gudgel

I hate you because I love you so with a love that's real and lasting.
I'm left with that, the best and the worst of it.
In the quiet now, the memories of every laugh we shared, everything I thought was real
howl through my hollow soul and in the echoes I hear "fool".
My heart screams out in agony.
Suffocating, I gasp but the air is empty.
There's a hole where you came and went
where there once was a door I opened for you.
You did not pass through my life; you passed through me.
I am not okay. It won't get better.
And someone else isn't you; he will not do.