The feelings that I am having right at this moment.
|I feel like I am hanging on by mere threads. The threads that are left of my heart are all that I am clinging to. I want it all to be over. I want everything to be fixed, to be the way it was, to be better than the way it was before everything fell to pieces. Before the last two years of my life flashed before my eyes and I felt as though my heart had been jolted from its place in my chest down into by stomach.
I am physically sick, wrapping my arms around myself attempting to keep my body from falling apart. I am scared that if I let it go and let my arms fall to my sides, that my body will crack and my heart will come tumbling out, and no one will ever be able to put me back together again.
Please God, just heal me. Heal us. Please help us to grow together again, and do not let us stray apart. I know in my heart that we are meant to be as one. If I lose him, my soul will forever be wandering, looking for the love it once knew.
I will never find anyone else like him.