If you were to lose the man that you were dedicated .
I do think sometimes that without him, I could enjoy the things that aren't so important to him anymore. Though with out him, my soul wouldn't be. Eleven years with him. "Hate the thoughts, of without him".
For some time now I do believe he invests his mental time for another. Perhaps without him he and I could meet our expectations, the ones that we hold each other back from.