Deep Thoughts

Not wanting to feel anything
Deep thoughts of suicide runs through my mind
Not wanting to feel anything
Sometimes these thoughts go too far

And just when I thought I was safe
From all these feelings of thoughts
I guess they found a place in my soul
The anger has taken control
Of me
I want to be set free
From the hostility
That makes me lose my ability
To have a relationship with someone
It's also holding me back from being happy and going out and have fun
All because these thoughts gone too far

Not wanting to feel anything
Deep thoughts of suicide runs through my mind
Not wanting to feel anything
Sometimes these thoughts go too far

And just when you think you're okay
I thought all that fear and anger has gone away
But no, maybe just for the day
It will be back when I'm least expecting it
Causing me to through a fit
Wherever I'm at
And I have to react
By leaving
'Cause now I'm believing
People are starting to think there's something wrong with me
How can I switch from a nice sweet girl
To a total fucking bitch
Which
Is something I'm not getting used to
But what the fuck am I supposed to do
This anger inside of me
Helps get rid of the anxiety
That's why I rather be
Fucking mad
Than shaking
Fucking making
Me look like some kind of wuss
But it's not like I'm angry all the time
Only when I'm trying to get the worrying off my mind

Not wanting to feel anything
Deep thoughts of suicide runs through my mind
Not wanting to feel anything
Sometimes these thoughts go too far

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