My Role Model, My Mother

A description of the chaos caused by the one person who should provide the most stability.

Because of you,
I cannot trust.
I cannot trust
Someone will keep
Their word.
Or follow through.

Because of you,
I cannot reach out.
I cannot reach
Out to another
For their support
They won’t be there.

Because of you,
I cannot be weak.
I cannot be
Weak, for no-one will
Be my strength.
I have only my own.

Because of you,
I cannot cry.
I cannot cry
When life is too
Much for me.
There is no time.

Because of you,
I cannot live.
I cannot trust,
Reach out, be weak,
Or even cry.

Because of you
I am a broken
And empty shell
Of a person.

All
Because of
You.