A dark summer night when I saw him after 3 years, and my heart stopped.
My tears stream down my face, yet I'm numb.
I'm numb to my emotions.
But then again it feels like I'm dying silently and painfully.
I'm in so much agony and I can't do anything but suppress the hurting.
I feel lousy because of him.
I don't hate him.
I sadly still love him.
Tell me how to make it stop.
there was a time when my heart wasn't blinding
but all of that is nothing but drowning.
Why does it hurt so much?
Because it was real...