Because it was real...

A dark summer night when I saw him after 3 years, and my heart stopped.

Why do I feel like I can't breathe?
My tears stream down my face, yet I'm numb.
I'm numb to my emotions.
But then again it feels like I'm dying silently and painfully.
I'm in so much agony and I can't do anything but suppress the hurting.
I feel lousy because of him.
I don't hate him.
I sadly still love him.
Tell me how to make it stop.
there was a time when my heart wasn't blinding
but all of that is nothing but drowning.
Why does it hurt so much?
Because it was real...