|I want to hurt. This week has been hard and painful, but it's not the right type of pain. It's been emotional and draining. Things have torn at my head and cut into my heart. It's not the kind of pain I want.
I want to shut down. I want real pain to wipe away my thoughts. Bruise and batter me and make me better. I haven't in so long, not sure I remember how. I remember what numb feels like and I welcome it now.
I want an empty plate, clear it for me and let me be whole. Hurt me on the outside and let me heal from within.