My life in a nutshell
|Choices and Moments
I have lived an interesting life.
One where normalcy has been intermittently intertwined and sometimes overshadowed by the unusual, bizarre and at times indescribable struggles, trails and pitfalls that can define the character of a individual if we let them.
I have seen things that most would not believe, also experienced pain and devastation that I would not wish on anybody.
Some of these came about by just living this human existence, others were incurred by the choices that I've made.
There has been the joy of watching life being brought into this world.
Conversely the pain of watching life being taken away quickly, or so very slowly as to eat away at the very essence of your soul.
I have been at the pinnacle of happiness and the deepest abyss of depression.
There has been impuritie, addiction, rejection.
Yet also acceptance, love, patience and kindness.
I've encountered times when moving on in this life seemed unacceptable... just to be countered by triumphs that lifted me from the depths of depravity.
There has been the faith of a Saint, and denial of a Judas.
Each and every one of these experiences played a part in defining who I am today.
The most important part of this process was choosing which things I would keep, implementing them into my life, and which needed to be rejected as so much refuse.
I made mistakes at times seeming like it was one step forward, three steps back.
The defining moment, the turning point in my life, was understanding that living life as a man of God, of integrity, whether personally or in business, was more important then what anybody thought of me.
Understanding that I could not do this alone and of my own power was a mind boggling epiphany. Giving away control is not something that most of us do very easily.
Yet, I understood the only choice I had if I was to become the man I strived to be was to give myself completely, heart, body and soul to God.
Did this happen overnight?
It has been a long arduous progress.
At times enjoyable, others very uncomfortable, but in the end all necessary.
Am I now perfect?
Not by a long shot!
Although, the path I walk gets narrower everyday... as I open my ears to hear Gods voice, put my full faith and trust in Him, do my best to live in a manner that please His heart.
Eminating to others the unconditional love and grace that I am shown everyday, even though I don't deserve it.
In doing this I can be sure I'm on the right track.
Perfection isn't doing everything right.
It's understanding when you're wrong, taking responsibility for it and doing whatever is necessary to make the positive changes that will reflect upon your character, integrity and most of all your love for God.
This is never going to be a perfect world, or a perfect life, but you can be a beacon of light in the darkness... and to God, that's perfection!