Want.

When trying isn't enough.

I want to be selfish,
I want to be kind.
I can’t bear to lose you,
I’m out of my mind.

I wish I could tell you
And show how I care.
I search for these feelings
I know aren’t there.

I hope you forgive me
For being a fool.
I hate that I hurt you
And turned cold and cruel.

I know that you can’t just
Forgive and forget-
I just want to say this
So I don’t regret.

I want you to know that
You’ll be in my heart.
I hope you’ll be happy
When we are apart.

I want you to bask
In sweet sunshine once more,
When the clouds that I’ve brought
Aren’t here anymore.