“You were wrong.” It escaped his lips like a kite would from a small child’s hand. So forceful, and not expected.
I went home later that day, as the sun was lying down to rest. My head fell to my pillow, and a cry escaped my heart. My chest and lungs hurt with the realization that I was no one’s. I was just alone, like I started off.
Then you called; I think with good intentions. They turned sour quick. You felt something for me, deep down in a place I didn’t want to be felt for. I didn’t want our friendship to turn sexual, but you pushed it off the edge. It fell while you were in awe. It didn’t last long.
Now you left me to. My only close friend.
I tried pushing down all the feelings I had, about everyone. It exploded in front of my face. My heart was racing and I couldn’t catch my breath. I grabbed my hair and closed my eyes. The pain only grew worse.
Memories appeared, they spoke to me. They told my devil like things. How all this pain would stop if I wasn’t there….