1. Fear continues to rule me. 2. Black energy, defined for me, not everyone
|Finally! A mediation that didn't upset me. Those brain wave meditations might have jumbled up my mind. The meditations are extremely personal and possibly only makes sense to me. Maybe I'll write up an explanation later.
Begin meditation with no brain frequency assistance
cut puppet strings (releases me from the world)
I heard a command, maybe jump, and landed on something circular
leap led me to something resembling a stalactite hold tight, entire body hugging it.
launch to a stalactite and twirl
dream up your perfect house
leap into star field
why leap because my house is gone? No more color
color is only a human perception
you don't need it
what was the purpose
to be comfortable
not possible keep working on this
found another word to replace [fear] but I don't remember.
Energy is low
The stars do not burn brightly all the way around
that's what we see
but every star has a fire burning only in the "front"
and has a barren spot behind it
kind of like a back porch
energy is nearly depleted while I search for a star that answers me back
finally found one that syncs with my energy field.
sustains human life
as expected, concept everything is linked is verified. (as much as my brain can accept)
Now the amazing part
What is black energy, I ask
Nothing but a term. I will show you dark energy
Rosicrucian ~ one interpretation. I am not of any religion, but I have practiced this meditation for at least 20 years. It spreads peace, and the changes are visible in those I include.
Precise description noted in a wiki link below.
This mediation is ingrained in me and is easy for me to grasp, although this is the first time I've encompassed such a large field.
surround your heart with the color of pink dawn. spread this color to others
I appear, stretch out my hand and reach my older daughter A.
I send hot pink rays to her as she need energy for work ~surround your heart with the pink dawn. spread this color to others.
A. sends energy to B. (younger daughter)
The circle is forming
I reach far to find my sister (J is my sister, who died in 1983)
not much left of her, but it's a comfort to hold her hand.
don't send that much energy to your sister B. I warn A.
A. sends only a pale pink to B.
J. is pure energy and she can recharge us
we're now joined hand in hand and forming a weightless circle
Why do we have form, I ask
You don't it's only your perception
I let go of the circle
how is that possible
you are now dark energy
what comes next?
You have evolved over 2 billion years, according to earth time, although time is only a concept
Where else can you take me?
Nowhere. I'm not any more evolved than you.
~~ Something new, unprompted, comes into my mind.
I remember a story I wrote about a girl who eventually will have a star filed to watch over.
Lots of readers asked me what that meant ~ link below if you're interested.
Now I have the answer that concludes the story linked below.
The star (meteor) fell to earth with a tiny bit of energy left. It wants to share with someone
I travel and find the star, but it's on the other side of a mountain I'm perceiving.
I hike all the way to the top and then all the way down the other side.
I absorb the energy.
I return to the field of stars,
which is nothing more than what a human being can perceive.
Rosicrucianism~ Often considered as the earliest religious thinkers