|Shadows at Dawn
To change direction of the past
would alter who I am today.
Eliminate regrets and cast
vague shadows on my current stay.
Those injured by my actions then
would now be also changed from when
this magic mending did occur,
I wonder how the lines would blur.
The boy I left, that broke his heart
moved on to find a better mate.
If I had stayed we'd play with fate
and sadly skip our trials apart.
It's best to leave things done and gone
a better way to see the dawn.
I gave up school and chose to wed,
no college paper dons my wall,
yet there is comfort in my bed
and my career has been my call.
With triple figures for my pay
I still find time to love and play.
Scholastic ventures can be found
without a formal classroom bound.
Should I return to former days,
the sheepskin prize, I'd give a try
but that would really be a lie,
I liked the journey in the maze.
It's best to leave things done and gone,
a brighter way to see the dawn.
Although this life is only lent
I'm grateful for this home called earth.
My autumn days have all been spent
it was a blink to now from birth.
I have matured, I will allow,
the winter seems less frigid now.
I'm happy with the choices made
with lots to do before I fade.
I'll leave a list of things undone,
without the dreams there is no me,
yet winter does not mean I flee.
I walk a path to find the sun
and strive to thrive until I'm gone
and can no longer see the dawn.
~~ Judi Van Gorder