An update on how I'm feeling about the unrequited love in my life
|How did I let you in, feeling exposed?
Using all my energy to stay composed.
I want to open up and be softer, sweeter.
I'm so close, on the edge where I teeter.
How am I supposed to bring down my walls?
Everytime I get my hopes up, something falls.
You disappoint, deceive, hide your truth.
Falling into easy habits that reek of youth.
It hurts my heart when you make me spiteful,
It's not in my nature to act so frightful.
I yearn to show you all my best traits,
Not respond in the way your behaviour creates.
You make me sad, down to my core.
I hate how badly I want so much more.
If you could see your potential as I can,
You'd stop being a boy and act like a man.
But life goes on; so much disarray,
Always acting like everything's OK.
It's falling apart, seams loosen and tear.
Things missed, ignored; it's so unfair.
Life can be cruel, bitter and tormented.
Each passing day the despair is cemented.
It's not just you that destroys my hope,
I just need to learn how better to cope.
I'm feeling less pull to be in your life,
I've realised now you cut like a knife,
Making me bleed, causing me pain.
It's getting easier to step back, refrain.
I hope you know that I will always care,
But when you need me I might not be there.
I can't keep allowing you to disappoint me,
I have to move on now, to set myself free.