So it's now 2020 and I'm wondering what I'll do with myself now. I don't have much accomplished since last year. I'm actually a lot of years behind in my goals. The successful ones are few and far apart. I have so many things I wish I had accomplished by now.
With my failures to complete so many things, I've considered the idea of just giving up and letting life take me in whatever direction it chooses. But then I wonder where I'd be if I just give up on any goal that I don't achieve.
I don't want to be one of those people who throws in the proverbial towel because of difficulties and hardships. That's actually not who I am. I'm an overcomer. Someone who continues on no matter what. I'm what some people have called "a fighter".
So what I want you to do is this: I want you to write at least one entire book and get it critiqued. Get it edited. Get it finished. Otherwise, you'll probably never be someone who accomplishes many things.
I mean, I've wanted to be a writer/author since I was only sixteen years old. That's starting early if you ask me. I still had school to deal with at that time. Now I don't have much of anything keeping me busy. There's church and some family events, of course, but my time is mostly free, allowing me to work on what I deem important.
You can do it, Kaymart. I know you have it in you to do something important. You've wanted to write something wholesome and worth reading for years. Now's your chance. Don't give up just because of a few complications like your TBI. Conquering things like that are what trusting in the Lord is all about.
Sure, you'll face even more things in the coming months. You live with your parents while your two younger brothers have moved out. But that just means you have more time you can devote to being the person God wants you to be.
Don't give up on your dream of being a published author because you keep struggling with getting something "decent" written. You've been told so many times and by so many people to just write horribly for the first draft. Do it, and I'm sure you'll end up succeeding.
You've devoted a lot to being a successful writer. You have friends who are also writers and who encourage you to get something completed before perfecting it. Perfection isn't something easily attained, after all.
Don't drop the idea of composing stories and - maybe - getting them published because of a few frustrating losses. Your parents want to help you. They offer their assistance when they can. They take you to places where you think you'll be able to write something worthwhile. Why? Because they love you want want you to succeed.
Writing is something that I've been told comes naturally to me. I think it's the same with you.
So I want you to do your best to write something even if it's awful. Even if it's not a full-length novel of fifty-thousand words or more. Even if it's just a page of writing that you share with someone and they want to know more about the characters and setting. If you can snag just one person's interest and hold onto it, then your writing is worth it.
You can do it. Keep telling yourself that, and you'll make it.