If You Had Loved Me Here

a girls first heartbreak will always be her father

Maybe in heaven you will be my dad.
Maybe when we meet in heaven, one day,
you will teach me how to ride a bike,
teach me how to swim,
teach me how a man should treat me.

Maybe — just maybe — when we meet in heaven,
I will forget the pain of not knowing my father.
And maybe you will be a dad to me.

Maybe when we meet in heaven.
But for now, I have to watch you from afar
and question myself —
why couldn’t you love me in this life too?

-A.V.