Passion exists..

and I want more of it in my life...(First draft)

I read something tonight that you wrote and it inspired me to feel something...
to desire more of something...
made me remember that passion exists...
and that i miss it...
and i want it...
in my life...
now...
again..
for real...
'

Where did all the passion go?
Where did meeting
exchanging numbers
talking
playing
asking questions
and listening to the answers go?
Where did "can I take you on a date?" go?...
These days, it's all about the drinks and hoping for something more afterwards
Knowing that you'll be free in the morning
when you want to wake up alone,
alongside someone,
simultaneously
who you'll make feel
utterly alone
when you let them realize
how unwanted their continued presence is.
as you slyly, stealthily, escape in silence..
and leave her no idea
as to what or why
what just happened
,
did.

These days, there lacks passion for others
Passion for love
passion for the love you have for yourself
passion for soothing your soul with the things you enjoy the most
Passion for patience
The patience to have when you are alone
To wait for that special person who will embark on that journey of passion with you
Who will write to you
who'll talk to you
Listen to understand you...
will kiss you with full lips, embracing tongues
caressing hands,
soft skin to skin experiences

You'll feel
"butterflies"
in your stomach..
so cliche, i know...
but thtat's how the story goes,
you get it, right?

In actuality, those "butterflies"
are a symptom of anxiety ...
isn't that funny...
but...
actually, it isn't...
I guess it is the anticipation of having those feelings
which that one person gives you when they are around you
and wanting more of it right now...

at this...

very....

second...


But you know at this moment you cannot have it
and even when you have it-
it is so good....
you know not what to do with it....
it is like you have it
and then it is gone....

and then you only realize
your realization of what you lost
when it left...
or when you threw it away...

and settled for less..

yep..

Went out, drank, danced, hung around for the two person after-party
and now you are ready for that feeling once more
Because you miss that genuineness of one's touch
the desire in their eyes
the love in their hearts
the Passion in their actions,
thoughts,
and words,
for you,
each other,
and everything they do...
The feeling you had when walking in the bright daylight through the forests with
Trees shadows castings coolness,
protection from the hot sun
gleaming through the cracks in the sky and the leaves
the feeling you had when you stood at the top of the mountain together
watching the sun set
and the flowers fly
The feelings you experienced when that one person just so much as brushed your arm and you didn't understand why,
but you felt it, deeply..
before they even passed you by...

The feeling of being completely content with being where you are
where things flow like the water through the rocks and
and conversation runs free
I am me
and
you are you

the desire for all that and more has come

She awaits...