Things I Regret Saying

A raw poem about words spoken in pain, and the heartbreak they left behind.

I regret the words I threw like knives,
In moments I just wanted to be heard.
I dressed my pain in sharpened lines.
and called it truth when it was just hurt.

I regret the "leave me alone,"
When all I wanted was your arms.
I built a fortress out of tone,
Then cried when you ignored alarms.

I regret saying, "its whatever,"
when your absence made me ache.
I wore indifference like a sweater,
But it never warmed the ache.

I regret the silent that followed "fine,"
That single word with too much weight.
I wished I'd said, "please read my mind,"
Instead of letting it dictate fate.

I regret the pride that made me cruel,
The ego masked as strength and grace.
I played the part, obeyed the rule-
Then watched you vanish without trace.

I regret not saying , "stay,"
Even when you started to go.
Now all I have are words I pray
could somehow let you know.