back pain

i have back pain and thought of writing about it instead of talking to someone.

BACK PAIN
Sometimes it is tolerable enough to ignore, something that seems irrelevant and silly to talk about.
Even with all the pain, i still keep my bad posture.
It is almost like I don't care enough about my spine.
When i try to fix my posture, reality itself seems to bend just to bring me down.
Sometimes, when i do mention this problem of mine, my friends seem worried.
"have you talked to your family about this?" One of them questioned,
But all i seem to think about are the moments when i tried to ask for help...
"Don't waste my time with something that is not serious." Yelled my father.
"You only have yourself to blame, do not bring your problems to us." Said my mother.
After receiving such reactions instead of help, i learned to ignore physical pain.
Twist my spine a little to one side,
Try to crack my back all by myself,
And my least favorite of all,
Trying to stand still while thinking of the decisions i made to carry such a heavy weight right on my back.