Unsent #1

How many letters would it take to get over you.

Hello again,

Did you sleep well?
I've been thinking about you. Remember the night festival we wanted to attend? Yeah, it's happening again. I swallow the need to ask you, since you've found someone new. I hate being this clingy. I have never been this clingy, I wonder why it's different when it comes to you.

Oh how I miss you. You have no idea. The depth of this emotion that is slowly eating me alive. I have already destroyed myself once, I cannot afford to do that again. So, I control my wandering mind, focus on what I can control and continue forward. I still slip up once in a while, but I guess that's what makes us human.

I wonder if you think about me as much as I do of you. Am I really not worth the consideration you so wholeheartedly give others. Are you purposely forgetting everything for ease. Do you really think avoidance will lead to peace. You probably don't realize how your actions cut deep.

There will be a day I stop thinking about you and missing you as much as I do.
Until then, I will keep writing these unsent letters.

Yours truly,
xx