A vulnerable request

When I tried to ask for help but it didn't land

I’m alone in this.
I begged for your help, with the words that I had, with my heart on the palm, of my hand reaching out, but you laughed at it.
So I’m alone on this.
While you tucked it away, in the drawer in your head, where you keep all the things, that I awkwardly said, when I asked for this.
Drowning in it,
All the things that I shared, all the pain in my way, that I tearfully bared, all to convey, just one main request;
Don’t leave me alone.
But you rolled both your eyes, though i know that it’s hard, so I tried to invite, and up went your guard, then you moved right along.
I’m in the dark with it,
Though I dragged it outside, and I tried not to hide, if we don’t talk it dies, and I slide back inside, deeper in it.
I’m alone in this.
I’ll always be alone in this.