NERVES

What it feels like to have social anxiety.

I fret and fret,
I start to feel cold warm sweat,
run down my neck,
as if I'm in debt.
Throat heavy,
legs unsteady.
Assuming that everything's,
come to it's dooming.
I don't just feel nervous and scared,
but impaired.
When I start to feel great that I came,
I see stares and then start to feel shame.
Want to feel the same as when I was a dame.
I miss who I used to be,
Crying myself to sleep.
Dreaming of what my new confident self would act like,
But when it comes to acting on it, my brain says, "Sike,"
I want to get out there in the real world,
And actually feel heard.