Where's My Man?

Why does love feel like it's never going to happen for me? I need to trust God's plan.

Want the lovey dovey old fashioned romance.
The support and connection everyone deserves.
Melting into idolized toxic people from my past,
to feel like there could've been something there,
so they I wouldn't have to keep waiting.
It feels so long that I've sat in my room,
or sweeping my kitchen broom.
Stirring in the happiness I could feel if my person had already found me.
I want a mature man who doesn't ghost me when I try to talk things out,
a man who can love me as I am,
a man who has the creative sparks and isn't too bold.
Why are all the boys I've found so cold?
I bring so much life to the table, but I've always served.
Why does it feel impossible?
Want a man to tell me how beautiful I am, to hold my hand.
I may not know what love feels like, but I know communication,
nowadays is "I can't".
God are you there?
Are you listening to me?
I should be waiting, but I keep on contemplating
on how different my life will look once the person, you'll send to me,
arrives.
Scenes from romantic movies, making me cry in my popcorn,
The Notebook especially makes me feel torn.
Hopefully I can get past this loneliness and get rid of emptiness,
through you lord.
It's just so hard to keep up with this society and their dating scoreboard.
I know, God, that You've had my best interests from the start, to protect my heart.
I just keep finding myself becoming desperate for anyone at this point, Lord, to resort,
to the imaginary, picture-perfect relationship in my head.
I replay the images over and over, but all I know is that I want the impatience to be over.