Start of the end

I thought it would last. I trusted her. Why.

Mind —numb,
Body —numb,
Hunger, gone.

Since you left,
my body shut down,
two days I couldn’t move,
weeks I couldn’t eat.
Even now,
I force each bite like a chore.

I don’t say this to blame you—
only to show you
how much you meant to me

Since that day
I’ve felt nothing.
No pain, no hunger, no sleep,
Just nothing,
Just an eerie silence I'm not used to.

Sometimes I break,
tears flooding, for hours without a break
but mostly it's a deafening silence that I'm having to get used to.

I can’t even blame you.
It was me,
I could’ve been better.

So let me be better.
Let me prove I can grow.
Don’t let us —something that cudve been great, go to waste,
I want us to try again,
Love eachother like we once did,
Be there for eachother like we once were.

I love you, I'm sorry.