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Poetry Collection About Secret Love
Beside, Inside
By
La Belle Rouge

Do you look at my picture everyday?
No need to lie, Sweet Man
I could swear sometimes I feel
the heat of your dark eyes boring
into pale jade pools of mine
Do your eyes wander over the
softness of feminine lips as you
imagine the sweet taste of them
against your hungry tongue?

Following the trail down the hollow
of my throat, do you curse the camera
for not including the outline of
rounded cleavage as your fingers
bend in anticipation of one brief touch?
Do you read my words and long
to experience my voice, just once?
To have me call you “Sweet Man?”
To get lost in the lilt of my laughter?

Do you sail with me on passion’s sea
lie with me on satin sheets
possess my heart and body
in warm magnolia scented moonlight
or gilded light of dancing candles?
Does my essence surround and lift you
on feathered angel wings of desire?
No need to lie, Sweet Man
Sometimes you are here, beside, inside me






The Show Must Go On
By La Belle Rouge

she plays the part so well
a woman in love and loved

but it?s only a part
a fairly easy one to play
and she is a good actress

she?s had years of practice

she?s weathered his storm
this time....but what of the next storm?

and there will be another storm
eventually..... because he?s not
the actor he prides himself on being

plain fact, he isn?t in love with her
probably never was
probably never will be

but he?s had years of practice

playing a leading man
covering his true emotions
with those called for in the script

pretending to love someone he doesn?t
accepting a big mistake
making the best of a bad situation

lying to her and himself
speaking his lines on cue
playing the love scenes like a pro

receiving rave reviews
and cries of ?encore, encore?
from an enchanted audience

who have no idea he's dying inside

so...must the show go on
and on and on, the same dull play
until the final curtain call

when the mask comes off at last

and it?s too late to audition
for a better part?


6/5/2007 La Belle Rouge

?Poetry, Pages Of Life?



Flesh And Soul
By La Belle Rouge

it was a thing of wonder,
the seamless joining of our souls
as old as a continuation of eternity
as new, as exciting, as a babe?s first cry

it was a wild ride on a carousel
and a placid meditation of life?s serenity
love and lust, it was...forbidden
but a thing of beauty, a joy forever

it was dreams and imaginations
based on the bedrock of our love
and inability to live without each other
though now we are forced to

i have no regret, no remorse
you have known me as no other has
we were gifted the secrets of hearts
and touched with more than fingers of flesh

i know the you she will never know
for your soul was mine... as mine was yours
she had your flesh, never your soul
and if faced with a choice, i?d take the latter

so fold the grief away now, dry the tears
love this magnificent may visit us
only once in a lifetime, or once forever
My Darling, think now of the love, not the loss



7/16/2007 La Belle Rouge

?Poetry, Love Whispers ?




Cuttin The Strings
By La Belle Rouge

I'm cuttin the strings givin you wings
wings to fly far away from me
sayin goodbye,
don't want you to cry
things are what they are
and that's how they gotta be

i counted the cost, it was already lost
i needed more than just dreams
so stay there with her
if that's what you prefer
no love .... such a waste it seems

my tears are all cried now
and i think that somehow
i'll make it on through to the dawn
let her pen that love poetry
it don't matter no more to me
all the hopes we once had are gone

so i guess she finally won
i'm poured out and done
with livin in the shadows of your life
each day went by, i'd hurt and cry
now my heart wants peace not strife

we crossed that line
so slow and easy in time
to hot lovers from closest friends
sometimes I still miss you, Baby
but we can't cross it back again

so i'm cuttin the strings
see what tomorrow's light brings
love once more knockin on my door
i'll love again, now or maybe then
but i aint cryin over you no more




Her Fear
By La Belle Rouge


she thinks she has what she never will

beauty reigns in paradise again
she silently soothes her fear
while she kisses him and holds him near
she pretends all is well once more
oh... but he knows he needs so much more
she doesn't see he'll never be free


he's still in love with me
and when he touches her
to her it will never occur
his heart is far away
in memories of other days
she has his flesh...he knows
she needs it so much
but in his wayward thoughts
it's still me he longs to touch


ahh... peace at last
she thinks the storm is past
but in his soul it never will
and though his touch is tender still
it's really my skin that he feels
he won't let her be upset
but in his heart he can't forget
the way our love used to be
and how he's still in love with me


time moves on
in time she feels the threat is gone
she'll live out her placid days
in a blind, self induced haze
and he, he'll still be thinking of me
and the love he left behind
when i was his and he was mine
each time he hears the word 'love'
it will be me he's thinking of
just a thought away, but for today

she thinks she has what she never will



9/21/2007 La Belle Rouge





Just Dust
By La Belle Rouge

i could rock your world
if i was spiteful enough
i could destroy his too
and make his life so rough

all those old love letters
i never threw away
you'd be shocked
at the things he had to say
about he and i
and about you too
if you could read them
i wonder what you'd do?

would you just pretend
you really didn't care
or would you finally admit
his love just isn't there?
enjoy his kisses and his smile
knowing he's not yours all the while?

you would think i'm to blame
curse and defame my name
it was he who pursued me
but you'll never begin to see
that you're living a long term lie
and it was he, not i
who looked for something more
who knocked on my door
with professions of love i didn't ask for

it's immaterial in my view
if this truth bothers you
so wake up or sleep
accusations are cheap
and if you enjoy living a lie
only you know the reason why

if it's of any consolation at all
my pain is far from small
when i finally walked away
i knew he'd just stay
in his prison with you
so here's what you do
enjoy his company
don't be concerned about me

i simply write out my pain
i have nothing left to gain
to hurt you then or now
you can be sure i would know how
but i'm not the bitch you believe
it's yourself you decieve
you want a man who doesn't want you
if you can live with that i can too

it's all dust in the wind anyway
each moment we all have to pay
from pain i will be free someday
but you have decided to stay
in a one-sided fairytale fantasy
you have it all except
his heart.... the part
that still belongs to me


7/24/2007 La Belle Rouge



His Thoughts His Heart His Bed
By La Belle Rouge

i don’t know if he lied
to you, to me
maybe to one or both

i don’t know how he feels
about you....or me

i only know he told me
he pities you
loves you like a friend
not a lover

i know he told me
when he touches you
in his heart it’s me he wants

how you take him for granted
like a maid and a stud

and you can’t give him
the depths he needs as a man

i don’t know how things
are between you now
i really don’t care

i only know what he said
and how he pursued and wooed me
pledging his eternal love

he wanted it over with you
but he couldn’t hurt you

so he couldn’t give me
the depths i need as a woman

if i’m not there anymore
in his thoughts
in his heart, in his world
it no longer matters to me

but don’t flatter yourself
i may have been the first
but i won’t be the last

with whom you’ll have to share
his thoughts, his heart
his bed


12/12/2007 La Belle Rouge





A Gentle Plunge
By La Belle Rouge

the plunge was made, long ago
when friendship deep grew
into deeper love

from the first day we dared
to say the words to each other

we knew
we were on a collision course
and someday two oceans

would overflow their banks
and crash headlong and hard
with desire into each other

we weighed the pros and cons
live the rest of our lives
without the love we need

or take a plunge
into the serene waters of love
the tumultuos waves of lust

oh yes it was love...and lust
the rare combination of both
in doses large enough to die for

dead vows, cold beds...forever?
a little stolen time, better than none?

I asked myself who broke the vows

me when I laid with you in ecstasy
or him when he failed
to honor and cherish his wife?

who was the innocent party...
me when I asked for freedom
or him when he refused to let me go?

you when you wanted, loved a woman
who loved and understood
all of you

or her when she stuck her head
in the sand like an ostrich
after you told her that from neglect
she had lost you?

it was a gentle plunge for us
without too much thought about things
we can't figure out

too much to understand
too little time, My Love
with you


7/13/2006 La Belle Rouge





The Pleasure Of His Company
By La Belle Rouge


the pleasure of his.... company
tempted, seduced and captured me

those tender words, that honest way
our serious talks
our outrageous play

the sound of his laughter
the beauty of his smile

how the heat of our desire
spanned every mile

his voice so smooth so rich and deep
it sets me on fire and makes me weep

the way he wants me
desperately and ever
the way he disappoints me
never

the fact that seduction is an art
and how he artfully captured my mind and heart

he's not in love with "Her"
I'm not in love with "Him"

we needed so much more than just a friend

he's everything I want in a man and more
I'm everything in a woman he can adore

it’s really a simple equation after all
you love someone who isn’t yours
but you can’t help but fall

the pull is so strong to be together
regardless of the storms
we both must weather

the stolen moments, the hidden times
when I am his and he is mine

the touches of gold, kisses of fire
each fantasy played, fulfilled each desire

the lover’s games, we know no shame

without our love how sad life would be
I need the pleasure of his….company


©8/2/2006 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Love Whispers”






You Have Her Fooled Don't You?
By La Belle Rouge

you have her fooled, don’t you?

she thinks i’m a red she-devil
who forced my way into your heart
who alienated your affections and
created that cold bed the two of you share

god how i wish she could have been
a fly on the wall, that day
you told me you were in love with me

she should have seen the surprise
on my face, and felt my confusion

i wish she knew about the way
you told me how selfish she was
and how you felt only pity for her
that your love for her died long ago

you swept me off my feet
then swept it all neatly under the rug

i never asked for or expected
anything but friendship from you

but she must think i danced naked
and threw myself under you
begging for the favor of a f—ck

to her i’m the scarlet whore
the home wrecking harlot

you bastard......
you weren’t man enough for either of us
not brave enough to leave either for the other

did you think i wasn’t woman enough
to see through it all and walk away?

you have convinced her that you never felt
anything for me but in her heart she knows

and in her thoughts she tries to sort out
the fact that you betrayed her
are still betraying her in your thoughts

she turned fact to fiction
believing i chased you down and chained you
while you screamed for mercy

wouldn’t it have made sense to simply
stay inside your boundaries
if you never intended to destroy them?

i wonder who you will give
your attention to, now that it’s not me

she is such a fool, like i once was
i wish i could tell her
i wish she knew the real you
but....

you have her fooled don’t you?


10/16/2007 La Belle Rouge











Empty Words
By La Belle Rouge

I believe in patience
I’ve lived a life that demanded
what seemed like an infinite amount

I’ve dreamed, hoped and waited
from time to time I gave up
but you gave me hope again
hope of at last being loved
the same way I love

it’s better to make no promises
than to make those you can’t keep
words are empty, without deeds

I can’t live forever on the fringes
of your life and pretend
distant love all I need
it will never be all I need
such love demands a lover’s touch

in a matter of time you will
grow weary with it all, love will die
and you will sail away as he did

leaving me with only memories
of what we once meant to each other
leaving no listening ear, no caring heart
no love to gently embrace me
and no broad shoulder to cry on


(C) 1/25/2007 La Belle Rouge
“Poetry, Soul Whispers”







Sometimes
By La Belle Rouge

sometimes I want to touch you
need to touch you
more than I need to breathe
or sleep or eat, I need you

not far away but near, right here
sometimes

I tell myself that life must be more
and yet, it never has been
maybe it never will be
and in the meantime

I just need you here
sometimes

sometimes I literally ache
for your touch, to be held
tenderly in the circle
of your welcoming arms

I barely make it without you
sometimes

I curse the miles between us
and the fact that in your mind
it seems completely impossible
to span the distance

I barely hold it together
sometimes

I try not to love you this way
but you are a part of me now
and I am a part of you
there would be little tenderness

without you to care about me
sometimes

the very thing that attracted me
your integrity, your honesty
has now become my undoing
for I am not as honorable as you

and I don’t care who we hurt
sometimes


© 4/21/2006 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Soul Whispers”




Unbearable
By La Belle Rouge

it would be almost bearable
the thought of you with her

if only you could be with me
sometimes…one time

one night to touch your face
inhale your scent, taste your lips
feel you heat deep inside me

and then maybe I wouldn’t feel
so destitute and dejected
at the thought of you with her

she basks in your kindness
every hour, each day…and night

I take the stolen moments
and wait, wait for something more

and every time he touches me
I wonder if you the same way
at the thought of me with him


©9/2/2005 La Belle Rouge



Come To Me Before Winter
by LaBelleRouge

Long shadows falling
Daylight fades fast
On brown and russet world
Almost empty branches reaching out
Bare and chilled, in frost bitten night
Trying to remember Summer
Wishing for another Spring
Only but a few days remain
Of sunlit warmth, Indian Summer
Then winter’s frigid death will cover
All the beauty of once subtle green
And bright hues of hazy brisk Autumn
Will you come to me, My Love,
Before Winter?

Will we know only once more
The consuming heat of passion’s summer sun
As it shines out of season for us alone
And though we dare not walk
Openly together under it’s warmth
Will we once again know its hot embrace
Or will snows of confusion and doubt
Lie heavy upon and smother our warming hearts
As delicate chains fashioned of ice
Entwine themselves ever more tightly
Until we lie still and cold in winter’s death
Where we cease to struggle and rest at last
From any thawing of youth and desire
Or will you come to me, My Love,
Before Winter?


(c)11/25/2002 La Belle Rouge

"Poetry, Reflections Of Love"





This Has To End
By La Belle Rouge

This has to end
I tell myself
this constant longing
to be with you
The straining of my ears
to hear you call my name
the fevered longing
of my trembling body
to feel the touch of
your tender poetic hands


This has to end
the days of fear that
you will forever be
too far away to touch
Nights of longing dreams
I know can never come true
Hours to days, days, weeks
until years wind into never
leaving only sweet agony of
loving completely and impossibly


This has to end
but I know it won't
As long as I breathe
and my heart continues
to beat, I will love you
As long as my flesh
can burn with desire
I will want you, My Love
Forever and after my soul
will be knit with yours


© 3-26-03 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Whispers Of Love”



Touch Impaired
By La Belle Rouge

Dreams are the things love is made of
Misty shadowed imaginings of
lingering touch, sugar cane kiss
Past midnight rushing headlong
into arms that wait to enfold
yearning ethereal essence
Dreams are the thing worth
embracing in night so dark
solitary and unsympathetic
to the torture of severance


Dreams are where we wake
to purpose and passion, where
distance and impossibilities melt
and we recognize the only touch
our souls and bodies crave
Dreams are the things that heal
and rehabilitate the victims
of long distance love affairs
The prescribed treatment for
the daylight “Touch impaired”


© 3-7-03 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry Whispers Of Love”



Beyond Cobalt Shadows
By La Belle Rouge


~We Rendezvous There~


Be mine if only in cobalt shadows
veiled by mystical twilight dusk
Daylight harbors its own stark realities
to be experienced in waking harshness
As velvet night caresses satin moon
Let me drift on sacred mists of imaginings
into the sanctuary of your waiting arms
Press me against your pounding heart
purloin my arduous breath with the
sugared forcefulness of your kisses


We rendezvous where the jagged edge
Of cold reality and heated reverie merge
blending into seamless nothingness
Where the essence of two souls unify
and float beyond pain’s existence
to crystalline chambers of mystic love
overlooking white sand shores kissed
by passion’s crashing turquoise waves
warmed by lustful heat of a crimson sun
beyond cool aloofness of cobalt shadows


Be mine completely only a fleeting moment
where Earth recedes, Heaven descends
and angels whisper above the sound of
hovered wings sheltering us in pristine white
nuances of love’s sacred balmy delights
Our touch ecstasy, our kisses rapture
The climatic crescendo of our desire
opens the jeweled gates of Shangri-La
where we enter together far beyond
dusky veiled twilight’s cobalt shadows



© 2-26-03 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Glimpses Of Immortality”





Liar
By La Belle Rouge

Rest your mind in the warmth
of my love that accepts
even the darkest, coldest parts
of the man you know you are
but try to deny and disown
He is no stranger to my soul
I have sensed his fear, his anger
and yes, his black despair


I have held you close
your heart beating against mine
while you deceived yourself
insisting you don’t really love me
You told me the same lie
but you fool yourself
more easily than me
Knowing truth, I accept untruth


I accept the limitations
and the stark impossibilities that
drive you to desperately need the lie
It’s too difficult for a man to love
what he can touch only in dreams
You can deny your love for me
but do you deny my presence there
in dreams, where you kiss my lips?


In dreams where limitations
and all impossibilities melt away
silently into sweet dark oblivion
and warmth of my smooth bare flesh
is pressed sometimes tenderly
others savagely against yours?
In dreams where you escape that man
you are, to become the one you vision


Oh, Sweet Love, you are such a liar
You know it, I know it
So all I ask is, since you don’t love me
let my warmth still offer you comfort
And let me cherish in dreams
the man you are, not what you vision
in an apparition as unreal as your dream
My heartbeat is reality
Can you still feel it against yours?


© 8-2-3003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Love Whispers”




Unbroken
By
La Belle Rouge

Connections
Unbroken lines
of communication
Miles of separation
You speak to my heart
on soft wind sighs of passion
and the love coo of evening doves

Imaginations
Sweet associations
of you with every reverie
and each cherished dream
Moonlight mingled with the scent
of gardenia and warmth of afterglow bliss

Dedications
Endless continuations
of our unbound infatuation
Resurrections of lost emotions
Across the miles and impossibilities
our connection remains eternally unbroken



Portrait Of A Woman
By
La Belle Rouge

She gave him a portrait of a woman
world of pleasure and pain in her eyes
Her heart unspoiled and tender
no need to wear a disguise

Each day he glanced at the portrait
but the person he could never see
Ignoring the passion and pain in her eyes
and the woman she could be

Days spent together becoming weeks
and weeks soon evolving to years
The pleasure and pain in the portrait’s eyes
were veiled now by woman tears

She gave him a portrait of a woman
but the portrait was all he would ever own
The love and life deep within her eyes
were shrouded and finally gone

~~~~~~~~~~

She gave him a portrait of a woman
too distant for his longing tangible touch
Each day he gazed at that portrait
desiring her beauty so much

He saw beneath the chilled apathy
discovering beyond the numbed disguise
a world of pleasure and pain
revolving within her eyes

Thawing her chill with warm love words
caressing her silent soul with piercing truth
Until the world in her eyes opened to him
and her love became the proof

She gave him a portrait of a woman
too distant for his yearning tactile embrace
but he found a whole world to possess
in the beauty of the portrait’s face


© 8-28-2003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Love Whispers”



Damn You
By La Belle Rouge

Labyrinths of undulating pain
yearnings too deep
murky and illicit
descending downward
into caverns of the soul
Pinching each slumbering emotion
into miserable awareness
I love you, hate you, want you,
need you to sprint away
in the opposite direction
from the tentacles of my desire
crawling, groping toward you
You have released the fountains
of my soul with eyes of flame
and a deep, careless stab
of your iced dagger of unconcern
until un-clotted poetry floats
on a river of raging anguish
Damn you for damning me

©2-18-2004 La Belle Rouge


“Poetry, Soul Whispers”
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On A Crystal Moonbeam
By
La Belle Rouge

Do you think that together
We could sail away
On a crystal moonbeam
To a land far away?

Forget all else and for
A long night and day
Follow our dreams
Free to love, free to play.

I’d hold your hand
And kiss your lips.
You’d feel my love
Though my fingertips.

On a crystal moonbeam
Beyond the milky way,
Vanished from reality
A long night and day.

And if we should find
That we’ve lost our way.
Tell me, My Darling,
Would you be content to stay?


His Rose
By
La Belle Rouge

beauty of one red rose
soft petals folded
like hands clasped in prayer.

Smooth velvet to touch…
Ambrosial essence…
Sweet fragrance of heaven..

Kissed with love’s dew,
petals unfold to
warmth of hot passion’s sun.

He buries his face
in silken red hair
inhaling her sacred scent.

Crimson dawn breaks.
Upon her pillow
rests one perfect red rose.



Liar
By
La Belle Rouge

Rest your mind in the warmth
of my love that accepts
even the darkest, coldest parts
of the man you know you are
but try to deny and disown.
He is no stranger to my soul.
I have sensed his fear, his anger
and yes, his black despair.

I have held you close
your heart beating against mine
while you deceived yourself
insisting you don’t really love me.
You told me the same lie
but you fool yourself
more easily than me.
Knowing truth, I accept untruth.

I accept the limitations
and the stark impossibilities that
drive you to desperately need the lie.
It’s too difficult for a man to love
what he can touch only in dreams.
You can deny your love for me
but do you deny my presence there
in dreams, where you kiss my lips?

In dreams where limitations
and all impossibilities melt away
silently into sweet, dark oblivion
and warmth of my smooth bare flesh
is pressed sometimes tenderly,
others savagely against yours?
In dreams where you escape that man
you are, to become the one you vision.

Oh, Sweet Love, you are such a liar
You know it, I know it.
So all I ask is, since you don’t love me,
let my warmth still offer you comfort
and let me cherish in dreams
the man you are, not what you vision
in an apparition as unreal as your dream.
My heartbeat is reality
Can you still feel it against yours?




Genteel Love
By
La Belle Rouge


She was always a Lady and
hid it well within the recesses of her heart
None would ever really know the truth
Except she…. and he
None would ever know for sure
if what she wrote was a fantasy
Except two who…. lived it
Their love would never be a threat
nor an obstacle to promises made
Except ….in dreams
Where walls fell, fences were scaled
and love found its powerful expression
Two hearts beating as one

He was always a Gentleman and
he hid her heart in the secret depths of his own
She made no demands he couldn’t meet
Asking only for….his love
His love he gave without reserve or price
making no demands she couldn’t meet
Asking only for….. her heart
Her heart beat for him and longed for him
Her soul passionately entwined with his
Asking only for……their dream
to be sacred in their separate existence
blended in the blaze of its eternal flame
Two distant lives touching

Life was always a challenge
Days and months passed and he continued
to fuel her desire to live and love
Finding herself…..in a dream
Finding the woman she lost along the way
or perhaps never became acquainted with
Finding his touch…..like fire
Burning away time lost in cold numbness
Engulfing her senses with being “In love”
Finding strength…..to be herself
and to love herself, as he did, from the
pedestal of a love goddess where the dream of
his devotion elevated her

© 9-9-2003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Love Whispers”



Who Is The Judge?
By
La Belle Rouge


The rain had descended, like a deluge
So many years with no sun
So many nights of no warmth
He offered love, what would she choose?

She could go on mourning, empty as before
Hide behind choking morality
in her crumbling ivory tower
and bolt securely her heart’s heavy door

His love was sunshine, his words a fire
Thawing her numbed soul
Caressing her wounded heart
Awakening the intensity of carnal desire

She felt alive in the beauty of his flame
Accepted and adored
Trembling with excitement
at just the thought of his beloved name

Judging, despising thoughts of an “Affair”
Would she live just once more
in the beauty of being in love?
Or simply walk away, not venture to dare?

She had no illusions about the cost
Lies and aching absences
Never again could she judge
Her integrity eclipsed by love and lost

~~~~~~~~

So long since he had felt a woman’s touch
She didn’t love him anymore
She pushed his hands away
when he still needed her so much

His body ached to hold her close
until she killed his love
with coldness and disrespect
the one he had faithfully loved the most

He never thought it could happen to him
He was strong and steady
not the kind to have affairs
A whiff of her perfume, he knew she was there

She was tender and warm, beautiful and sweet
capturing imagination and heart
that opened to her like an unread book
loved and admired for what he was and could be

He ached to hold her, to taste her soft lips
the cost would be high
but he would gladly pay
Just to touch her face with his fingertips

He had no delusions about wrong and right
He needed her desperately
if only one stolen hour
His soul cried out for her in the night

~~~~~~~

So easy to judge so hard to understand
Desires, the thirst for love
all the hidden reasons for
the affair of a needy woman and man

© 10-28-2003 La Belle Rouge

"Poetry, Soul Whispers"




Shadow Of Love
By
La Belle Rouge

I am only a cryptic shadow
of dark desire
A transparent, ethereal cloud
drifting across
the iridescent face of the moon
Calling to you from
the swirling vortex of a reverie
Embracing you in
the tropic equator of your fantasy

Adoring fingertips
formed from your lucid imagination
tenderly tracing
the beloved contours of your face
I am nothing more
than the silent silhouette of truth
you created
in a moment of aching desperation

You find it impossible to seal
your ears against
beauty of siren song enchantment
My gardenia scent
permeates the recesses of your soul
and my name
is always only a slip of the tongue away
from discovery

You taste soft lips, ravish with no shame
round contours
of my supple, surrendered body
Convincing yourself
I am no more than a ghost of desire
but I have become
your most tangible, indispensable reality
Your shadow, your dream

© 10-29-2003

“Poetry, Soul Whispers”




Beyond Reality
By
La Belle Rouge

She waltzes through his world
in a cloud of jasmine perfume
and holds his heart like
a fragile crystal chalice in the
warmth of her delicate hands

The balm of her affection
heals his scarred over wounds
He dares to see himself through
the mirrors of her soul and
understands how miracles still happen

She presses him to her heart
Fills him with strength
Imbues him with confidence
He perceives that her love endures all
in the beauty of their entwined souls

He’s never gazed into her eyes
but he comprehends
the power of love they hold
within dancing emerald depths
that mystically capture him

He’s never caressed her
smooth alabaster skin
but his fingers have learned
each trembling pleasure
in lucid, aching dream’s delight

Pouting lips he has never tasted
yet their flavor lingers on his
as breath and souls merge
Somewhere beyond senseless reality
love lives and she...is love

~~~~~~~~~~~~

He unbolted the door so gently, quietly
Entered and ravished her soul
with tender words of adoration
and deft touches of heartstrings
that vibrated once again with joy

His scent captures her senses
though distance disallows
anything but vivid imagination
He is manliness and strength
sensuality and gentleness

He holds her tight through
darkness and storms that threaten
to end her fragile existence
He is a fortress of protection
a shelter of sumptuous plenty

He is her teacher, her clown, her desire
the reason she still wants to live
Though she has never seen his face
he is beautiful in her eyes
and foremost in her heart

He is a light that shines constantly
on the woman lost long ago
and a strong arm to lean on
while she finds her way back
to reclaim her from the darkness

She has accepted the reality
that their eyes and lips will never
join in passion’s embrace, but
somewhere beyond senseless reality
love lives and he...is love

©12-23-2003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Love Whispers”




Orange Marmalade Sin
By
La Belle Rouge

I linger in the garden of amethyst imagination
lost in the remnant of a once perfect, tattered dream
where nothing now remains of love’s vast frontier
No treasures to explore, no outward reason to weep
for all the tortured tears fell long ago.... unnoticed
Shadowy labyrinths below respectability’s surface
no longer hold any clandestine attraction or beauty
I hide on the fringes of your world and surrounded by
thick darkness, I peer in through locked, lighted windows
where your life continues just as if I had never existed
in the citadel of your soul, the harbor of your heart
As though our lascivious lips had never coupled

Once siren songs and magic musings graced our days
while wildflowers wantonly waltzed a ballet of passion
around our bed and through our delicious, daring dreams
Now all the world is hollow, like faithless love words
and hearts that cannot find a sanctuary of rest
wandering twisted paths in foreboding forests of doubt
Have you wiped my kiss carelessly from your lips
in frigid Winter bleakness, like warm droplets
of a honey-wine sip on scorching Summer’s day?
Has the memory of my embrace escaped you forever
or does it still haunt your reeling senses when imprisoned
in the confinement of other desperate ravenous arms ?

I grieve at a sealed tomb enclosing decaying corpse
of silent, lifeless love; once viable, fragrant and joyous
My ears gradually becoming attuned to funeral dirges
and my exhausted eyes adjusting to darkness blacker
and far more ominous than lunar eclipse at midnight
I whisper your name but you never respond at all
and I wonder if you even vaguely remember mine
Tears still flow but only within the secret chambers
where only I....and you, hold the key and no one enters
the ravaged wasteland of my wounded, sorrowing soul
No one but you…. in midnight memories of other times
and other places, when forbidden love was alive
and orange marmalade sin still bittersweet


copyright 12-28-2003 La Belle Rouge




Locked In
By La Belle Rouge

I slipped into your soul
like vapor under a doorway,
swirled around noiselessly into
every hidden recess,
each concealed niche
I’ve held and examined
all the emotional grenades in your
covert cache… without trepidation
and now it’s too late to deny
what I’ve secretly seen
what I’ve gently, quietly handled
You won’t even admit to yourself
how well I understand you,
and how effortlessly I find my way
through the mysterious mazes
no one else has ever discovered
I’m hopelessly locked inside them now
but I don’t try to escape

You veil it all too well
from the prying eyes of the world
the pain you carry…within a soul
aged to perfection like vintage wine
Richly intoxicating, tangy sweet
I’ve sipped from that silver chalice
until I’m wasted…
drunk with loving you
and I fear I shall never again know
a day or night of cold sobriety
or that I would even choose to
There is no LA, “Lovers Anonymous”
to help me break my addiction,
No fellow travelers on my shameful path
No meetings to attend
where one announces,
“My name is ___and I’m a fool”

© 3-12-2004 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Love Whispers




Orange Marmalade Sin
By
La Belle Rouge

by LaBelleRouge

I linger in the garden of amethyst imagination
lost in the remnant of a once perfect, tattered dream
where nothing now remains of love’s vast frontier
No treasures to explore, no outward reason to weep
for all the tortured tears fell long ago.... unnoticed
Shadowy labyrinths below respectability’s surface
no longer hold any clandestine attraction or beauty
I hide on the fringes of your world and surrounded by
thick darkness, I peer in through locked, lighted windows
where your life continues just as if I had never existed
in the citadel of your soul, the harbor of your heart
As though our lascivious lips had never coupled

Once siren songs and magic musings graced our days
while wildflowers wantonly waltzed a ballet of passion
around our bed and through our delicious, daring dreams
Now all the world is hollow, like faithless love words
and hearts that cannot find a sanctuary of rest
wandering twisted paths in foreboding forests of doubt
Have you wiped my kiss carelessly from your lips
in frigid Winter bleakness, like warm droplets
of a honey-wine sip on scorching Summer’s day?
Has the memory of my embrace escaped you forever
or does it still haunt your reeling senses when imprisoned
in the confinement of other desperate ravenous arms ?

I grieve at a sealed tomb enclosing decaying corpse
of silent, lifeless love; once viable, fragrant and joyous
My ears gradually becoming attuned to funeral dirges
and my exhausted eyes adjusting to darkness blacker
and far more ominous than lunar eclipse at midnight
I whisper your name but you never respond at all
and I wonder if you even vaguely remember mine
Tears still flow but only within the secret chambers
where only I....and you, hold the key and no one enters
the ravaged wasteland of my wounded, sorrowing soul
No one but you…. in midnight memories of other times
and other places, when forbidden love was alive
and orange marmalade sin still bittersweet

copyright 12-28-2003 La Belle
Rouge




She Will Never Know
By La Belle Rouge

I know about her, all about her
The things you find beautiful
the things that bruise your heart
I know how you long to have her
admire you, love you, as she once did
I know about the nights she sleeps
by your side and you both watch
the cold clock with bodies that ache
for just one touch of true warmth

I know about the children she gave you
and how deeply you love them
Soon they’ll leave home and then
you will be alone with her again
with memories of how it was when
being alone together felt good
I know about her demands and
arguments that shred both your hearts
I know how she cries, though you don’t

I know you stay, because of honor
and from a habit of love that,
though fatally wounded, won’t die
I know you give and give and
receive almost nothing in return
while you never lose hope that
someday it will change and love will
once more find its way to your door
I know about her, all about her
but she will never know about me

© 4-15-2004 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Soul Whispers”



If You Were Here
By
La Belle Rouge


I would spend a Spring day
on a long walk with you
in a meadow of newly blossomed
bright hued wildflowers
In the grass, beside a gently flowing river
we’d eat a picnic lunch
and enjoy a bottle of wine together
…..If you were here

We’d talk and laugh…how we’d laugh
You’d hold my hand
and call me your Belle, your Sunshine
and I’d kiss you so deeply
you’d not know where your soul ends
and mine begins
We’d spend the day living our dreams
…..if you were here

And since we are embracing fantasies
I’d turn back time
There would be no silver in our hair
no regrets in our past
The only promises would be those we
make to each other
Time would stand sill for us, Sweet Love
…..if you were here

When Goddess Moon reigns in splendor
mid cricket serenade
and black velvet night surrounds us
we would ride
a carpet woven of scarlet passion threads
above the pain
and beyond the desolate impossibilities
…..if you were here

©3-24-2004 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Soul Whispers”


Damn You
By La Belle Rouge

Labyrinths of undulating pain
yearnings too deep
murky and illicit
descending downward
into caverns of the soul
Pinching each slumbering emotion
into miserable awareness
I love you, hate you, want you,
need you to sprint away
in the opposite direction
from the tentacles of my desire
crawling, groping toward you
You have released the fountains
of my soul with eyes of flame
and a deep, careless stab
of your iced dagger of unconcern
until un-clotted poetry floats
on a river of raging anguish
Damn you for damning me

©2-18-2004 La Belle Rouge




Love's Bridge
By
La Belle Rouge

So many obstacles, miles between
Yet in our hearts they vanish
while like birds on the wing
we rise above and freely fly
where hearts meld together
in a cloudless turquoise sky

Totally hopeless situation,
Unattainable dream
becoming entirely possible
when through eyes of love seen
Walls tumble and fences fall
Power of our love conquering all

Having only to speak your name
to feel your hand in mine
Your touch upon the breeze
Souls transcending space and time
Unseen bridge readily crossed
where forever you are mine

A secret lovers’ lair
beyond stalwart prison bars
Warm days ‘neath tangerine suns
distance tamed, I am where you are
Impassioned indigo nights enfold us
and where you are is never…..too far

©2-7-2004 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Love Whispers”





Damned And Condemned
By
La Belle Rouge

At just the thought of you
the repetition of your name in my mind
my heart melts like spent candle-wax
Melting, flowing down into
the deepest plateau of my soul
where love grows like a delicate, rare orchid
and desire churns out of control
like a turbulent plains tornado

The image of your face, chiseled
like an ancient Greek god
surrounding eyes that spare not
my secrets long concealed from others
nor the lust for you I try to disavow and
cover with pretensions of “Friendship”
Your sensual lips curved in waywardness
silently screaming “KISS ME”

I imagine the power of your lips on mine
The sugar cane sweetness of
kisses too hot to contemplate
without longing sighs and body tremors
I can’t inwardly deny the ache I feel for you
my need to touch your face, trace your lips
and coil my body tightly around yours

Labored breath catches in my throat
at the idea of revealing my truth to you
and my heart sinks into an abyss of pain
at the thought of your never knowing
Damned to become your slave if I tell
Condemned to Hell without parole if I don’t
Should I enlighten you My Love
or do you already know?

©2-4-2004 La Belle Rouge

"Poetry, Love Whispers"



Loving Another Woman's Man
By
La Belle Rouge

She can’t seem to help it;
the way her heart holds his
and there’s no way she can stop it
the strong affection to him she gives
She hides away in the shadows
The righteous world can’t understand
why a woman like her continues
loving another woman’s man

He gives her something precious
no one ever gave her before
and even if she wanted to
she couldn’t walk out of his life’s door
He makes her feel new and alive,
with sweet love words and tender touch
She knows she is deeply adored
but the sacrifice is often too much

She thinks of the rightful one
sleeping every night by his side
She loves him so completely
it’s gone far beyond her pride
He needs her love as much; but
honor alone dictates their plan
and she’s locked in the dirty prison
of loving another woman’s man

© 2-3-2004 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry Soul Whispers”



Living A Lie
By
La Belle Rouge

Souls weeping softly from shadows
of cold, unending hopelessness
Shrouded in selfless obscurity
Commitment is a cherished thing
unless it becomes a tortuous chain
Love’s redemption despaired of
Living a lie… lying to live
weeping inside and hiding tears from
the eyes of those who caused them
Honor above love chosen reluctantly
like bitter medicine of ancient herb
With promise to cure mortal pain
it can never begin to briefly assuage

Stumbling though thick shadows
blind hearts inadvertently colliding
unavoidably recognizing the beauty of
souls that reflect the same intensity
of love and desire, of hidden pain
and the shame of hurting themselves
to spare the suffering of others
Am I to blame, are you, for paths
leading to a mutual crossroad?
Am I the jailer who built and secured
your self-enforced prison of loneliness?
The culprit who disturbed your numbness
or the savior who destroyed it?

©1-27-2004 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Soul Whispers”




Wicked
By
La Belle Rouge

Oh do not think me wicked
for a heart that loves more than one
I have long braved the depths of no love
and at last I have overcome
And do not stand in judgment
of comforting, loving words I give
to those lonely too long
endangered of losing the will to live

Do not think me shallow
because of playful poetry light
Sometimes a simple, bawdy laugh
will alleviate the darkness of night
And perhaps the silly slogan
“Love Should Be Fun”
will awaken those in relationships
that sadly are having none

And if they are inspired
to know that passion is yet alive
Maybe they will change their lives
into the depths of its well dive
Life is far too short, My Dears
to live it with apathy cold
Sometimes from a few words of love
someone finds a warm dream to hold

So do not think me wicked
for love and passion my pen inscribes
Each day alone and loveless
a little more of the person dies
And if indeed I am guilty
deserving or your distain and such
Then gladly I will bear the blame
of loving too many…. too much

© 12-3-2003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Soul Whispers”



A Sweet Dream
By
La Belle Rouge

I know you’re a dream
nothing less, nothing more
I knew it the first time
you entered my heart’s door
I understood you were beyond
the reality of touch
I knew it, My Darling
but I needed you so much

I needed the way you gave me
love unconditionally
Desired the warmth of your eyes
that I will never see
I craved those sweet love words
that melted my soul
Had to have the support you gave me
when life was out of control

You’re only a sweet dream
I hold within my heart
I’ll never touch or kiss you
I’ve known that from the start
But love is as real and precious
from a distance shared
as it would be, Sweet Love
if you were here or I was there

I know you’re a dream
but you are so real to me
I don’t have to touch
I don’t have to see
To know the love we share
is special and true
And for the rest of my life
I’ll be dreaming of you

© 12-1-2003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Love Whispers




Genteel Love
By
La Belle Rouge

She was always a Lady and
hid it well within the recesses of her heart
None would ever really know the truth
Except she…. and he
None would ever know for sure
if what she wrote was a fantasy
Except two who…. lived it
Their love would never be a threat
nor an obstacle to promises made
Except ….in dreams
Where walls fell, fences were scaled
and love found its powerful expression
Two hearts beating as one

He was always a Gentleman and
he hid her heart in the secret depths of his own
She made no demands he couldn’t meet
Asking only for….his love
His love he gave without reserve or price
making no demands she couldn’t meet
Asking only for….. her heart
Her heart beat for him and longed for him
Her soul passionately entwined with his
Asking only for……their dream
to be sacred in their separate existence
blended in the blaze of its eternal flame
Two distant lives touching

Life was always a challenge
Days and months passed and he continued
to fuel her desire to live and love
Finding herself…..in a dream
Finding the woman she lost along the way
or perhaps never became acquainted with
Finding his touch…..like fire
Burning away time lost in cold numbness
Engulfing her senses with being “In love”
Finding strength…..to be herself
and to love herself, as he did, from the
pedestal of a love goddess where the dream of
his devotion elevated her

© 9-9-2003 La Belle Rouge



A Whispered Goodbye
By
La Belle Rouge

I tire of the pain, of the knowledge
that I am seldom in your thoughts
though you are ever present in mine
I have asked so little, such a miniscule
place I have occupied in your life
such a tiny drop in your ocean of time
I have been satisfied to share with you
But now I find to the dismay of
all the real love I bear toward you
There is not even so much as an
expression of concern for my safety
in the midst of destruction all around me
I deserve more and though I know
my heart is much too tender to ever feel
anything other than love for you
I must move it farther away emotionally
from the one it has adored so long
or risk it’s utter devastation at last
I send you a kiss, Dear Love
still warm with my affection and desire
Borne on a gentle whisper of “Goodbye”

© 9-23-2003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Soul Whispers”



If Only
By
La Belle Rouge

I’ve missed you and I have to admit
I thought of you everyday
and longed to hear your voice
The sweet anxiety of your message
the obvious sincerity of your concern
for my welfare and safety
touched the deepest part of my heart
and I find myself wondering
what we might mean to each other….if only
If only miles could be melted away
and freedom wasn’t a forbidden word
If only, if only… but life must be built
on the are’s and not the if’s
If only I could end the loneliness for you
If only I could wish into existence
she who would be the deserving object
of your deepest devotion and desire,
the longed for completion of your soul
If only we had met before it was too late
for the ares; too sad for the if onlys

© 9-23-2003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Soul Whispers”


Soul To Soul
By
La Belle Rouge

At just the sight of your name on the page
my heart beat quickens and
my breath catches in my throat
Such is the deep admiration, and love
my soul has harbored for you
since first I saw your name on a page
and our essence blended in lexis
of poetry too angelic, too exquisite
for less poetic hearts to feel
or more common eyes to recognize
I experience the constant enigma
of want for the warmth of tender touch
famine for molten sugared kisses
consummation of all we share
and yet, the fullness of a feast of love
is ever mine; a satiated palate of desire
devoured in secret banquet chambers
where you serve delicacies prepared
for the taste of my tongue alone
Each time the pain of past deprivation
brings questioning of why I had never
been adored by one who could return
the depths of adoration , heights of passion
Joy springs up within me as I remember
I am loved by you……it is a wonderment
a tribute beyond any I ever hoped for
to be loved, desired, honored by such a man
capable of depths of love and understanding
as I have never known before in another soul
that has come close enough to touch mine
There is healing balm in your love
I feel your fingertips drying tears of remorse
Tracing gently the edges of raw wounds
Kissing tenderly enduring scars of regret
It is enough, Sweet Love, more than enough
to have your love, to hold your heart within mine
and feel the kiss, soul to soul, most will never know

© 9-14-2005 La Belle Rouge
From “Letters Of Love”



Rainy Days
By
La Belle Rouge

Today it rained, gray, cold and dark
I was lost in reverie of how I greatly miss
the warm sun o f your presence
during those times you are gone from me
and yet, Dear One, you are never
further away than the beat of my heart
the next deep breath I will take
or the dreams I will dwell in tonight
I inhale and exhale your essence
for you surround me each moment
like a mist of viable peace and passion
The sun of your love giving secret songs
and shining beyond the cold deluge
of my everyday storms of pouring pain
There was a time I chaffed against bars
frustrated, angry that they kept us apart
Now I slip deftly, silently between them
on gray rainy days, like a ethereal spirit
long ago forgotten, devoid of substance
and I dance with you in fragrant meadows
of bright, lucid, sunshine-wildflower dreams
Where I feel the touch of tender hands

© 9-14-2005 La Belle Rouge
From “Letters Of Love”



Mystic Kisses
By
La Belle Rouge

Who are you Poet?
I know you not at all and yet,
my thirsting soul’s open entrance welcomes
the flood of yours within the gates
of its most intimate awareness
I devour your words, like forbidden
dark chocolate candy eaten in secret
while my imagination grows obese
on the confections of your mind
that I ache to capture and plunder
The well of a mind like none ever before
craved with a such driving thirst
to drink of until I’m filled to overflowing
with the silent mystery of your power

On a carpet of lush words, I fly away with you
to exotic shores unknown, unexplored
To cryptic galaxies and universes
Glimpsing within the spokes of an
ever revolving, suspended, shimmering
wheel of thought and emotions
the essence of who you are
and one you seek, one I know I could be
If I could but dare to strip away my disguise
I lie with you in fields of translucent flowers
kissed by winds of cosmic arrogance
Where reality merges with fantasy
until I can no longer discern between the two

Who are you Poet?
Do you comprehend yourself
or are you, like me, still searching
stretching, aching to…. become?
Your thoughts are not of this world
but they spring from that one we share
Distant from the mundane and mild
painted with colors not yet blended
Where our lips touch in mystic kisses
too perfect to be hidden in forgetfulness
or dismissed as poetic fantasy flights
I know you not and yet, you are known
in the depths of my inquisitive soul
in the secret arms of my clandestine love

© 9-29-2003 La Belle Rouge
“Poetry, Love Whispers”



Secret Chambers
By
La Belle Rouge

You enter the secret chambers
Touch all the hidden compartments
of a cloistered soul I believed
would never be unlocked to another
The heavy door bolted fast and
hung on rusted hinges, immovable
The keys you held and with one
unconscious movement, the lock
sprang open to your touch
Your tenderness, Oh My Love
such gentle, ardent adoration
I had not known could dwell
in the lips and fingertips of a man
The words, such longing, burning
words expressive of love’s perfection
I had never dared expect to hear
in the darkness of this existence
Perhaps in some remote Nirvana
flowing on a jasmine scented mist
but never on the parched plains
and infertile fields of this, my earth
But now you have invaded my world
and the reviving rain of your love
the fertilization of life-giving words
belong to me, ending my long drought
throwing open barred windows
of once secret chambers where
your tender words caress my heart
and a kiss of fire awakens my soul
while we dwell together and dine on
a banquet love alone could prepare

© 9-12-2003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Love Whispers”



Fire Of Desire
By
La Belle Rouge

If desire is a fire
burning out of control
tis better to burn
than to freeze in the cold

Then let me die
a thousand sweet deaths
rocked on the sea
of passion's breast

And give me fire hot
to consume my soul
Let me know love's depths
before I grow too old

I’ll not ask for riches
nor lust for fame
Only that upon my lips I bear
the sweetness of your name

If love is ever wrong
then I’ll suffer the penalty
of the affection that surprised
and entangled you and me

And if there is a time
when we must let go
I’ll close my eyes and ears
for I can not bear to know

The dark depths of desolation
your absence brings
without you, My Love
my heart would cease to sing

The most precious days
I have ever known
were the times we spent
in love’s beauty alone

The sound of your voice
The tenderness of your lips
The warm, gentle touch
of your loving fingertips

If the heat of our passion
should devour our souls
then let our desire
take its deepest toll

And if desire is a fire
that consumes it’s prey
I’d rather die in your arms
than be without you a day

© 10-6-2003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Flames Of Desire”



Love Incognito
By
La Belle Rouge

We told ourselves we were only
two people with simpatico thoughts
We gave no consideration to
the should nots and the oughts

We were just being friendly
Sharing our thoughts and art
but deep inside we both realized
we were mutually losing our hearts

We discreetly covered it all
with a cloak of true admiration
Wrote it down only for poetry’s sake
but we knew the real explanation

We tried at first to deny it
but the truth of it was much too strong
Whenever we were apart it seemed
together was where we belonged

It wore a robe of distant dignity
until the heat of desire burned away
all the ridiculous costumes
leaving only the feelings to stay

It hid behind a mask of
little jokes, of laughter and smiles
It dressed up like a circus clown
and gave us joy across the miles

We dared not admit what we shared
Telling ourselves and each other lies
We claimed it was merely friendship
But Darling, it was love in disguise

© 10-3-2003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Soul Whispers”



Only Tonight
By
La Belle Rouge

There’s only tonight
but one night is enough
if you stop fighting the truth
and admit to both of us
that you want me

There’s only tonight
but one night is enough
to be more than all
other nights you’ve known
before knowing me

There’s only tonight
and soul mates alone
ever realize the prize
of only one night in the arms
of the “Right one”

There’s only tonight
with no chains or demands
one night held in memory forever
One night of only pure love with
the only soul mate we’ll know

©10-2-2003 La Belle Rouge
“Poetry, Love Whispers”



REAL
By
La Belle Rouge

You, My Poet, pen erotic jewels
multi-faceted, shimmering, alive
and vibrant enough to cause
bright blushing angel’s sighs
I write honeyed romantic poetry
and some sultry, spicy hot enough
to blister the readers imagination
But I need you to understand,
My Love, when I write for you,
all the adoration, passion, devotion
comes from the depths of my soul
No deceit, no flattery, in my words
No veil conceals my heart or emotions
When I write for you, whether the
world is invited to read or if penned
privately for your eyes only…..
When I write for you and my heart
feels the bliss of being held in yours
Our souls soar entwined in ecstasy
through endless galaxies of pleasure
we have created together to share
It is then that my pen is golden
my breathless words alive and real

© 9-11-2003 La Belle Rouge



Love Switch
By
La Belle Rouge

If the heart had a “Love switch”
we could flip off and on
all our regrets and confusion
would finally be gone

We would love who we should
but find that we can’t
Love would grow lush and strong
like a well watered plant

If desire operated on a “GFI”
we could defuse all the heartaches
and questions of why
love came too late and exists too far
We could skip all those futile
wishes on a falling star

But there is no switch known
to control love’s desires
What begins as a tiny flame
ends up uncontrollable fire

And the stubborn heart has
a mind of all its own
Loving and embracing who it will
life has undoubtedly shown

If we could just invent a switch
to control our love lives
we could end the pain
of a thousand sharp knives
that cut and stab
at the fabric of our soul
when our stubborn heart
burns out of control

© 9-16-2003 La Belle Rouge



Beside, Inside
By
La Belle Rouge

Do you look at my picture everyday?
No need to lie, Sweet Man
I could swear sometimes I feel
the heat of your dark eyes boring
into pale jade pools of mine
Do your eyes wander over the
softness of feminine lips as you
imagine the sweet taste of them
against your hungry tongue?

Following the trail down the hollow
of my throat, do you curse the camera
for not including the outline of
rounded cleavage as your fingers
bend in anticipation of one brief touch?
Do you read my words and long
to experience my voice, just once?
To have me call you “Sweet Man?”
To get lost in the lilt of my laughter?

Do you sail with me on passion’s sea
lie with me on satin sheets
possess my heart and body
in warm magnolia scented moonlight
or gilded light of dancing candles?
Does my essence surround and lift you
on feathered angel wings of desire?
No need to lie, Sweet Man
Sometimes you are here, beside, inside me

© 9-2-2003 La Belle Rouge




Distant
By
La Belle Rouge

You are so distant, unobtainable
My aching wish upon a shimmering star
Sweetest love song of my longing soul

I close my eyes in still darkness
and sense your lips against their lids
tenderly kissing away hopeless tears

Deep murmurs in my ears of
loving, lustful desires, too dulcet and hot
for even whispered repetition

You are closer than my next breath
Yet too distant to touch except with
nimble fingertips of undaunted dreams

You are spreading shade of an ancient oak
the bubble of a clear crystal spring
ending the driving drought of all my tomorrows

Amid the blistering Sahara of my today
you are an oasis of cool pleasures and
Warm hearth in Winter to end stabbing winds

Too distant to touch and yet your love
surrounds and shields always
from the chilling harshness of reality

More real are you, My Love
more touchable than those around me
Your love, my constant strength and hope

Let me rest forever in your embrace
Submerged in deep pools of your eyes
Consumed in the white-hot fire of your heart

© 9-2-2003 La Belle Rouge




Black Robed Night
By
La Belle Rouge

Black Night has myriad eyes, ears
watching, eternally listening
to each silent tear falling
and covert desire calling
Shrouded Night is objective
in his judgment of souls
He witnesses the covert gaze
of lust-filled lovers at each other
The night knows; but he never tells
about the pain of private Hells

Cavernous as the depths of night
the flowing well of the heart
covers, combines secrets dark
Souls dare not to expose the spark
Cloaked in obscurity, love denied
escapes in mists of welcoming shadow
there powerful passion is veiled
except to Black-Robed Judge Night
and his minions of witness stars
where love at last eludes strong bars

Shady Night brings no fear to those
who escape into his embrace
Anticipating forbidden touch and kiss
without his subterfuge only to miss
tender fingertips, lips beloved in secret
Love’s lies flow with clandestine tides
on passion’s turbulent, turquoise ocean
sequestered safe in indigo-midnight coves
Black-Robed Night is no feared specter
no death sentencing, judgmental objector

© 9-2-2003 La Belle Rouge



Our World
By
La Belle Rouge

We built a world
of long ago and far away
An exquisite world
where we long to stay
A precious place where
the expression of our love
is the envy of angels and
and Olympic gods above

We constructed a kingdom
where passion sweet
flows freely between us
and makes life complete
In a fanciful fantasy sublime
I am yours…. you are mine
Nothing to separate us
Until the end of time

We conjured a land
of daring dreams
Souls and bodies are one
no walls existing between
We penned it all down
making reveries real
Inviting the whole world
to join in the thrill

Of passion consuming
and love so real
You have only to read it
for the soul to feel
the magnificent obsession
of the deep love we share
Inexpressible to us here
but ours forever…. there

© 8-25-2003 La Belle Rouge


Starlight Flights
By
La Belle Rouge

Super nova exploding
in a remote galaxy
dark desires imploding
Reality of what you are
Love more distant
than a blazing star
Love with restrictions
too far and too late
Yet you’re closer than
the next breath I’ll take


Sadness surrounding
two hearts so alone
Confusion compounding
the long journey home
Fighting the impulse
to chance one more time
a heart crushed to nothing
when laid on the line
Visioning each other clearly
yet knowing love is blind


Lone nights spent in reverie
pondering the passion
that draws us to be
surreal lovers entwined
in starlight flight dreams
The world not understanding
or applauding shared schemes
Lost forever in the mystic
warmth of your touch
Irrevocable heart captivity
I need you....too much

© 8-24 La Belle Rouge



Ambushed
By
La Belle Rouge

Sometimes, My Sweet Love
loneliness closes in
like a merciless predator
Stalking hurting heart
poised to devour all joy
capturing jaded mind
with thought chains of
aching hopelessness
and I begin to wonder
why I ever allowed myself
to love you in the depths
of my fractured longing soul
when we both fully realize
our love will forever be
at a distance so expansive
and separated by fences
so strong and high that
only in our hearts and dreams
will we ever jump the walls
and span the distance

My eyes will never gaze
into the loving depths of yours
and yet we see into
each other’s souls so effortlessly
I will never feel the touch
of your tender hands
but they hold my heart
in their careful embrace
as no other hands have ever
nor will ever hold it
The tears fall, My Love
far too often, but I never
let you know I cry for you
There is nothing you can do
to ease my pain at the
dark stabbing impossibilities
and the times of loneliness
so cold and agonizing
they crush my heart until
I can hardly draw the next breath

Do you ever cry for me?
I know you would never tell me
You are the brave one
the strong one who takes life
as it is handed to you and
even when you are crying inside
you are giving hope and smiles
to me and others who are not
so stoic about their pain
We didn’t choose for love to
capture our hearts and bind
them together with such
understanding and desire
If I had a real choice I would
have been only your loving friend
and not complicated your life
and mine with those words
that burst from my soul that day
but, there is no choice when
the heart is ambushed and
conquered by such love
© 4-30-2003 La Belle Rouge



An affectionate touch against my cheek
Love words whispered softly in my ear
Warm caress of tender hands
It feels as though you are here
In today’s reality I know you aren’t
but I feel your heart beat against my heart

Having no where left to fall except into you
I have no recourse left in life it seems
but to sleep in the blanket of your love
and live with you in lucid dreams
I know there is a distance between
but miles can never our love demean

The sound of your voice is borne on the wind
The warmth of your touch so sublime
I’m lost in a cloud of passion’s flame
the substance of your love truly mine
I know you are only a illusion, a thought
but who is to say dreaming is for naught

You are with me in the darkness of night
when the heart is silent and stilled
I hold you near, taste you kiss
and to the force of your love I thrill
So what is reality and what a dream
depends on where you choose to live it seems

© 8-19-2003 La Belle Rouge

“Poetry, Love Whispers”



Remember Me
By
La Belle Rouge

I know I’m only a
minute part of your life
a life filled with family
work and all the things
you do for fun
but I think, perhaps
I’ve touched a place
behind your fortress walls
a depth in your soul
that no other has
or has wanted to

The time we’ve spent
communicating and writing
our thoughts to share
the works we write together
and separately to each other
will still be here and read
when both of us are only
a fleeting reflection
two vaguely remembered
names on a copyright

I only ask of you, what I give
I give you, Dear Heart
my unfeigned adoration
of your heart and your pen
I give you a listening ear
a caring heart, a soul
bound in love with yours
asking nothing other than
what is your delight to give
and your pleasure to receive

I have no delusions
about rendezvous or
knowing your touch except
in the beauty of words
that flow from your pen
into the depths of my heart
holding it securely with more
passion and compassion
than the arms of others
have ever held my body

I know we will never share
momentous occasions of life
many having already passed
but we share each day a smile
a word of love and passion
a thread of understanding
If life should end for either of us
the other must hide the tears
and grieve alone but I promise
I will never forget you
Will you remember me?
© 5-16-2003 La Belle Rouge


Distance And Time
By
La Belle Rouge

Do you think
if time stood still
and distance melted away
if there were no chains
to bind us
no ties
to make us stay
would we finally admit
the love
we both feel
the coupling of our hearts
so precious, so real?


If there was no honor
to worry about
would the love within
find its way
without?
No obligations
day by day
would you come to me
and forever stay?
Would you look into my eyes
and at last find yourself
take your heart down off the shelf?


Would you taste
my lips and press me
close to your heart?
Would we
be together
and never again apart?
Would we make sweet love
and dance
in the rain?
Would you open your soul
and let me touch the pain?


If time stood still
and distance melted away
I’d enfold you in my arms
and beg you
to stay
But time rushes on
Distance remains
Everyday life goes on
much the same
In dreams
you are mine
and forever will be
until time is no more and
from distance we’re free
© 4-28-2003 La Belle Rouge



This Has To End
By
La Belle Rouge

This has to end
I tell myself
this constant longing
to be with you
The straining of my ears
to hear you call my name
the fevered longing
of my trembling body
to feel the touch of
your tender poetic hands


This has to end
the days of fear that
you will forever be
too far away to touch
Nights of longing dreams
I know can never come true
Hours to days, days, weeks
until years wind into never
leaving only sweet agony of
loving completely and impossibly


This has to end
but I know it won't
As long as I breathe
and my heart continues
to beat, I will love you
As long as my flesh
can burn with desire
I will want you, My Love
Forever and after my soul
will be knit with yours
© 3-26-03 La Belle Rouge



In Your Heart’s Embrace
By
La Belle Rouge


Beneath our smiles we all
hide our pain
Afraid to divulge our fears
or the fact that
we are vulnerable to damage
and weaker
than we are willing to admit
even to ourselves


You invaded my space and
made me confess
all the things I thought
I never would
And then you kissed the most
vile confessions
held me close and whispered
“I love you”


How can I ever let go of you?
You are part of me
as I have become indisputably
a part of you
Touched covert wounds and fears
Heard silent confessions
Admired you for your humanity and
whispered, “I love you”


Beneath my smile you alone
Know my pain
weak vulnerability has captured
and sealed our love
You may distance yourself from me
but I will live
forever in the adamant embrace
of your heart
© 3-21-03 La Belle Rouge



I Wonder Who You Really Are
By
La Belle Rouge

I wonder who you really are
you seem so near
but you come from afar
And what is this familiarity?
Though we’ve never yet met
I know you and you know me
How is it I can feel in mine
the depths of your soul
the moving of your times
the pain you’ve borne
the healing of your scars?
Is it true that destiny
is written in the stars?


How do you know words to say
the ones I need to hear
to ease my pain, make my day?
Why do I feel the need to know
all about where you’ve been
and you intend to go?
How can I explain the sense
of comfort so soothing
and danger so exciting
it’s shaking and moving?
What should I do
now that you’re here
rush into your arms or
run away in fear?


At the beginning of each new day
another layer of the unknown
seems to be peeled away
Wanting more than superficiality
the depths of your heart
unashamed, opened wide to me
I want to know the you beyond
the tiny bits and pieces shown
the one you have hidden for so long
the one nobody else has even known
the one you fear to face yourself
along with all of the losing hand
that cruel fickle fate has dealt
I wonder who you really are
You seem so near and not so far
© 4-19-2003 La Belle Rouge



By The Fireside
By
La Belle Rouge

In our cozy cabin by the fireside
I'll wait for you again tonight
The place where you tenderly hold me
and make everything wrong seem right
deep in the snow covered forest
away from the world's demands
drifting softly away on dreams
with the only one who understands
each love word I long to hear
every pleasured touch I desire
how to end my lonely cold night
with the flame of passion's fire

We'll enjoy a candlelight dinner
and talk together about our day
We won't have to leave til morning
My Darling, we can stay
wrapped in each other's arms
On a bear-skin rug by the fire
Or in that big fourposter
if bed becomes our desire
I'll touch you everywhere
no one has touched you before
We won't be disturbed at all
I've shut and bolted the door

I'll wait for you, My Love
in fireside reverie once more
and in my pleasant dreams
I'll hear your voice at the door
I'll feel your arms surround me
taste the sweet fire of your kiss
Come to me again by the fireside
my love you need not resist
I'm the one who knows your heart
the one who loves the real you
Hurry to me in warm secret dreams
through pristine snow and shadows blue

© 3-13-03 La Belle Rouge



Beyond Words
By
La Belle Rouge

If all words disappeared
and dreams visited us
nevermore

I would yet feel the touch
of your soul against mine
Exquisite!

The caress of loving hands
on bare flesh smoothness
Explosive!

Our lips would rendezvous
our essence mingle
Breathless!

In black mists of midnight
the river of love's wine
Flowing

Communication, imagination
expression of completion
Flawless

The feel of you within me
as I sourround you
Beyond words

© 3-10-03 La Belle Rouge



Touch Impaired
By
La Belle Rouge


Dreams are the things love is made of
Misty shadowed imaginings of
lingering touch, sugar cane kiss
Past midnight rushing headlong
into arms that wait to enfold
yearning ethereal essence
Dreams are the thing worth
embracing in night so dark
solitary and unsympathetic
to the torture of severance


Dreams are where we wake
to purpose and passion, where
distance and impossibilities melt
and we recognize the only touch
our souls and bodies crave
Dreams are the things that heal
and rehabilitate the victims
of long distance love affairs
The prescribed treatment for
the daylight “Touch impaired”

© 3-7-03 La Belle Rouge



Lying To Myself
By
La Belle Rouge

Do you think just
for one night
we could forget
what can never be
Concentrate instead
on the feelings
between you and me


Throw away
the hoplessness
Hide away together
and lock the door
I don't want
to think about
everyone else anymore


I don't want
to worry about
Heaven and Hell
and right and wrong
Just need to touch
you Baby, we've waited
for this so long


I know it will
never happen
but I lie to myself
that it will
Dreaming of how divine
just one night in
your arms would feel


So I'll meet you
again tonight, Love
and tomorrow night too
Holding on to each other
in mysty shadows of blue
For only in our dreams
will I ever make love with you

© 2-27-03 La Belle Rouge


~Enough~
By
La Belle Rouge

You are so distant, so unobtainable
I know I will never see the love in your eyes
or feel the longed for touch of your hands
and yet, somehow I already have and
it is enough to own even that small portion
of your life and love in desire’s complete
abandonment to my sleeping, waking dreams
of our times together we will never have
You are so far away but as close as breath
and the beating of my heart that aches for you
I hear your words of adoration, I’m not alone
you are always with me, though never here


I feel the touch of your hand on my shoulder
and the soft heat Of your kiss against my neck
When days are unbearably dark, I can sense
the energy of your love embrace me, whispering
“I’m here, My Love, it will be alright”
and someway you convince me that it will
Sometimes when I walk alone or lie down
with such emptiness in my soul, I feel
the welcome of strong arms slip around me
as you mystically draw me close to your heart
breaking my prison bars of loneliness and fear
releasing my essence to join with yours


If I could touch you, My Love, there is no doubt
you would possess not only my soul but
my body that heats and trembles with desire
at the thought of you so far and yet so near
I feel the tears dammed behind brave eyes
and I think I should feel sorry for myself
and for you, as you also long for me
but I cannot for the life of me feel sympathy
for two separated lovers who have known depths
some will never know in a lifetime of togetherness
even though we are so distant and unobtainable
except in dreams that strangely seem enough
© 2-4-03 La Belle Rouge




The Taste Of Love
By
La Belle Rouge


If there were no reasons why not
and only grounds for why
we would dance in the rain
speak heart to heart, face to face
Welcome the twilight together
Sleep under a canopy of stars


If there were no considerations
other than passion and love
we would take our fill of
heated desire with no fear
of secrets and sins or thoughts
of anything but us


If there were no wounds and doubts
I would open my soul so wide
you could walk through depths
Of who I am, know the truth
about who I have been
and vision who I am going to be


If there were no miles between us
nor forbidden fences to climb
I would lie in your arms all night
then silently leave you at dawn
a smile long lingering on your lips
the taste of love still on your tongue
© 1/11/03 La Belle Rouge




Closer Than Breath
By
La Belle Rouge

You are so distant and yet
closer than my next breath
Warmth of your constant tender love
and flame of forceful desire
capture and surround my soul
with the ever present essence of you
At the most unusual times
I feel you near as your distilate
mingles unexplicably with mine
causing my heart to skip a beat
and a sigh of longing to escape
the confines of soft red lips
suddenly heated with desire
for the sweet taste of your kisses
My skin shivers and body trembles
at the thought of your hands
touching, pleasuring my bare flesh
How is it I am strangely content
to simply want all of you, My Love
aware that the desire will never
be fulfilled the fire never quenched
by the touch of your hands and lips or
soothing balm of spoken words of love
It is enough to have
the love of such a man
even though you are so distant
yet closer than my next breath
© 1/9/03 La Belle Rouge





Hungry Souls
By
La Belle Rouge

I see your name printed on the page
and everything within me cries out
to give you my love, to know yours
joined as one already in soul depths
You know me not and yet, Mon Amour
you know me completely
love me to desperation
desire me as I desire you
You are fire so hot it reflects
flaming streaks of azure heat
to possess my barren cold hearthside
igniting my heart and body to burn
uncontrollably for only one brief touch
from your worshipping hands
one sweet kiss from passionate lips
You are devotion so pure and gentle
you turn my mundane existence
into royal courts of your Crimson Queen
mystic temple of Emerald Jeweled Goddess
My adoration of you so encompassing
that I am warm in the midst of Winter
cherished completely though alone
satiated by love in the deep yearning of my
ethereal yet all too tangible dreams of you
I see your name, printed there on the page
and I silently send, Mon Amour, soul to soul
what I can never give you with my body
a love so powerful, passionate but pure
that I can only believe it will endure and
that you feel my lips softly brushing yours
with a lingering kiss of our hungry souls

(c) 1/2/03 La Belle Rouge




Feeling The Fire
By
La Belle Rouge

Watching the blazing sunset
Listening to a love song play
Standing alone in moonlight
At the end of another long day
Aching to hold you Darling
Longing to feel your touch
Wondering if you're thinking of me
As I'm missing you more than too much

Thinking about your hands, your voice
Taste of your kiss, scent of your skin
Heart aching and body burning
Just to be with you again
My trembling body filled with desire
As once again I feel the fire
Over the miles calling out your name
Wondering if you feel the same
Surrounded all night by love's yearning flame
I try to sleep, but I lie awake
Some things in life we have to take
Stolen hours to ease the pain
Of lives we're forced to spend apart
While growing flames of love
Consume our lonely hearts



My Lover My Friend
By
La Belle Rouge

I know we can never be lovers
Except in the sweetest of dreams
But I want you to know, My Love
How much your friendship means
I was drowning, you got there just in time
Threw out to me your sweet love
Like a strong, unbreakable lifeline
Held me in your willing arms
And in your heart for all time

I never knew I was beautiful
Until you made me feel that way
Never had a friend I could bare my soul to
And say anything I wanted to say
No one had ever made me feel
So valuable like you
None had been so accepting
Of all I am and do

Sometimes I feel I've conquered
The "If onlys" of my life
But there is one, My Darling
That never will be right
The crushing if only
I had known you years ago
Been free to be with you forever
And I just want you to know
That what I feel for you
Is love so true and deep
Even though we can only be together
In sweetest dreams of sleep

Our sin was being lonely
Love our only crime
And we will never touch
Or look into each other's eyes
For all our years of time
But I want you to know
You are held in my heart each day
And dreams of you in the night
My Love, are with me now to stay

You are so much a part of me
Our souls are intertwined
But I've accepted that only in dreams
Will you ever be completely mine
Life isn't made of if onlys
And we can't change the past
But the love I have for you
Until there is no longer me, will last

Copyright 8/3/2002 2002 La Belle Rouge



Eyelid Imprints
By
La Belle Rouge

I see your face that I’ve never seen
Imprinted on the lids I close
As I lie down alone and think of
The words of passionate love
You speak so boldly to my soul
Though I’ve never heard your voice
Its deep sound moves sensuously
Among the shadows of my mind
And my pulse quickens at just the thought
Of your hand I have never touched
Reaching out and touching mine
The clean scent of your skin
That I’ve never experienced wafts though
My consciousness, fueling my desire
For firelight nights with nothing between

My heart is entangled and captured
By the heat of your passion
And the forcefulness of your masculinity
Oh, to be fragile embraced by your strength
Small surrounded by your size
Greedily I long to be the object of such devotion
The answer to such raw need
To fill up your senses with the beauty of
My face you have never seen
My voice that calls out silently to you
Across every barrier of time, space and impossibility
The scent of my perfume mixed with musk
As I enfold you in the soothing warmth of my love
I want to swear to you that you will never again
Know such a wrenching, burning Hell of need
But instead I close my eyes and see on the lids
The beloved face I’ve never seen
(c)11/25/2002 La Belle Rouge



What We Never Had
By
La Belle Rouge

We never had the opportunity to look
deeply into eyes of love and desire
but we felt the kind of love
that could last for a lifetime and
we ached with desire for each other
I never heard your voice, nor you mine
though I did listen to your
answering machine once and hung up
without leaving any message
not knowing if that deep masculine voice
that asked me to leave one, was yours
We never had even a moment together
one touch of hands or a tender kiss
not so much as one hour together
and the thought of a whole night was like
reaching for the moon on a stepladder
We had love, yes, no doubt we did
and enough passion to set the night on fire
What we never had was freedom
to express it or even consider our love
without restraint or guilt in our minds
and freedom is what we will never have
Love is free, like a bird on the wing
like a winding river gently flowing
wind through the trees, snowflakes that fall
Deprived of emancipation, love weakens
Love unexpressed languishes and dies
So what we never had or ever will have
My Love, is a chance to keep it alive

(c) 12/24/02 La Belle Rouge



No Key
By
La Belle Rouge

Times of confusion, direction obscured
Mind running to the limits of possibilities
Heart aching to find the right path
Too many questions, too few answers
Not wanting to cause harm or pain
Trying to imagine my own may eventually end
I weep because I have hurt you and myself
To prevent damaging so many others
I ache because of your numbness
That you wear like a well fitted coat
Covering the bare ribs of your pain
You think I don’t care and you will
Never believe that I care too much
If I knew how to end it, the pain
Or the desperation of wanting
Something, someone we can’t have
I would unlock all the bars today
And love would be free at last
But there is no key, not that I own
So I weep because I hurt you and myself

(c) 12/29/02 La Belle Rouge






Soul Depths
By
La Belle Rouge

Will we ever understand that physical pleasure is not love
Sexual expression without love works with the same mechanics
Still giving closeness and fleshly pleasure but it lacks
The fire that caresses not body alone, but soul
Long distance love is so hard on the heart
Lying alone wishing for the arms of the beloved
Wondering if they long for you with the same intensity
I’ve lived a little, I’ve known physical love without spiritual
And spiritual love without physical, neither is ideal
But if I have to make a choice between the two
I would rather have the beauty of my soul revealed
And mystically embraced from afar in honesty and desire
Than feel arms of flesh surround me, hot passion take me
With someone who knows not, nor values my soul
The body I live in has needs, but it is an outward shell
That holds the eternal treasure of who I really am
I need to be loved, the real me, the eternal me
And the eternal part of me longs to know
The forever depths of another until two souls become one
Though eyes may never look into each other
Hands may never touch or caress, nor arms embrace
Lips may never meet to seal love’s pledge
And bodies that ache with desire are never to entwine
There are depths of love beyond the physical
Deep, eternal and free
But how I envy those who have found both
11/24/02


Giving And Taking
By
La Belle Rouge

When I consider the years we both
Gave and gave until we felt
There was nothing left to give
The pain of trying too hard
And never being good enough
Desperate hopelessness of knowing
It never would be enough
But we would still continue
To impart the very best we had
I would give to him
You would give to her
And both of them would take
Until there was nothing left
Of you or me to give
I can’t help but weep

My Love, I long to give you at least
The part of me he never had
Because he never really wanted
The full unlocked disclosure of my heart
It never seemed important to him
The few times I tried to bestow it
He turned away, too busy with
Important things in his own heart
To care about the trivial things in mine
So I locked it away, I thought forever
Covered in cobwebs of neglect
Unwanted, disrespected, denied
I dared not even look at it myself
For fear my world would end
By acknowledging the dying dreams
The anger, the pain, the loneliness

You arrived forceful yet tender
Destroying the strong lock
Causing heart treasure to spill at your feet
Just as the wealth of yours became mine
Now what are we supposed to do
With all these valuables
That no one else wants?
What sweet torture
To love another soul so much
Knowing that mystic love is all
That will be ours now or forever
No touch of flesh or kiss of fire
Only the sweet possession of
The most precious part of each other’s soul
Do you think the pain is worth it?
I’m never really sure, My Love,
But I want to believe the treasure
Outweighs the aching loneliness




Slumbered Imaginings
By
La Belle Rouge

I dreamed last night of you, My Love
Once again in slumbered imaginings
I looked into the depths of your eyes
Heard the music of your voice
Tasted the sweet fire of your kiss
And felt the flaming touch
Of your hands on my skin
In dreams there are no bars between us
No distance, nothing to prevent
The melding of our souls and bodies
In sleep's idyllic land
We walk arm in arm
Speak face to face
Lie in each other's arms
With no thought of anyone but us

But morning came and with it
All the burdens of who I am,
Where I am and what I can't have
I wanted to sleep on, but life
Consists not of shadowy dreams
Regardless of their perfection
Another day of longing for you
Chaffing at the bars
Bewildered by the distance
Tedious hours of living for dreams
And waiting for night to bring
The sweet release of sleep
Tonight I will dream of you, My Love
And in slumbered imagingings
Once again you will be mine





Forbidden Hours
By
La Belle Rouge

Let me spend forbidden hours
Embraced in the depths of your eyes
The world closes in until
I can no longer bear its intrusion
The weight of it crushes
Its violence tearing at my soul
Like ravenous foxes at a winter kill
Or vultures by the roadside

Let me revel in forbidden nights
Wrapped in the sanctuary of your arms.
Coldness has entered into my bones, my spirit
Until I'm lulled into unfeeling sleep of death
In the clutches of futility and grief
Warm me with your touch, your kiss
Let me feel the flame I have forgotten
In my long estrangement from fire

Let me be to you as you are to me
A cup of warmth to hold in frozen fingers
Until tingling feeling begins to replace
The numbness of a bitter day
Like mulled cider, hot, spicey and sweet
Warming, comforting, filling
Cup of warmth overflowing with pleasure
Spirits renewed again

Let me spend forever in your heart
Sheltered in your love, warmed by your heat
I require no promises, hold no cords
To control or bind you to me
I offer love, simple and profound
All that I am, within and without
Mingled with all that you are
Ending long Winter, thawing frigid souls




Words Are Not Enough
By
La Belle Rouge

My words have never been enough
To convey my thoughts
But if you could only feel
The gentle touch of my hand
There would be no need for words
My thoughts of you are constantly
Drifting through my mind
Like snowflakes on a winter's day
Or flying embers from a roaring fire
Giving me light and warmth
In a cold world of shadows

If I could touch you, My Love
Words would never again be needed
For in my touch, would be conveyed
All the depths of my love
That can never be contained
In the smallness of mere words
If my lips should join with yours
In love's sweetest expression
You would know the burning, consuming
Fire of my passion embracing your soul
My breath, my life, mingling with yours

Words are only words,
Sometimes powerful and rich
But never equaling the
The pleasure of yearning love's
Fulfillment in a touch, a kiss
In words our imaginations
Allow us to taste of passion's bliss
But only in the touch of our lover's hands
Are we truly and completely satisfied
My words will never be enough
To convey my thoughts of love



Only Once
By
La Belle Rouge

I’ve been in love only once
It was forbidden love
And I’ve often wondered
If the taboo is what made it
So intensely exciting
I thought I knew myself
The things I was and was not
Capable of being guilty of
The lifetime moral fiber of my soul
But I’d never known a man like you
And I’d never felt desire like that
And I often wonder if I ever
Will allow myself to feel it again
I don’t think I will
Or if I do I’ll lie to myself
And pretend I don’t
The price is just too high
I have no sanctimonious rightness
To ever hide behind again
I’ve had to face the animal passions
That once unleashed, rule over logic
And the fact that I can love to distraction

Now I know how it feels
To tremble and burn with
Insatiable desire that tramples over
Honesty, fidelity, cold duty
Dead love you know in your heart
Will never be resurrected again
But you owe your lifetime allegiance
To its rotting demanding corpse
I’ve been in love only once
But once was enough to let me know
What being in love is and is not
I wanted to crawl up into the shelter
Of your beautiful heart
Satisfied forever to be enclosed in you
I would rather have died after
Just one night in your arms
Than to live a century without you
I would rather have been
Everything I’ve ever considered evil
Than to be a pristine angel
And never have known you and love
11/13/02




Thank You For The Dream
By
La Belle Rouge

Thank you for the Dream, My Love
The one I never
Want to wake from
The dream of soft music
And candlelight
Dancing so close
Our bodies move as one
Thank you for the roses
Everyday
And the beautiful passion
Of your love
Every night

Thank you for the kisses
Hotter and sweeter
Than anything
I've ever tasted before
Thank you for
The way you hold me
Close to your heart
Tenderly
For the knowing
And pleasurable
Touch of your hands
And the way
You make love to me
Passionately
Withholding nothing
Of yourself
Or your love

Thank you for making me feel
Like the most beautiful
And desirable woman
You have ever loved
For the adoration
You give to me
Such as few women
Will ever know

Thank you for
Your sweet words of love
They melt my heart
And touch my soul
Thank you for my tears
That fall so freely
From once dry eyes
And the fire that burns
Like an inferno
In a once cold heart

If a dream is all
I ever have
Will be more real
Than the reality
I have known before
I want to get lost
In the dream of your love
And never wake
Sleeping sweetly
Against your heart
That beats with love for me



Heart's Desire
By
La Belle Rouge

You were here before me
Not distant in years
How is it, we never knew
Never met, never touched
Never felt such love and desire
Years slipped away
Like pebbles cascading
Down a desolate mountainside
No longer ours to hold
What I desire, My Love
I will never have

To see you before
The silver laced your dark hair
To trace the outlines
Of your beloved face
While the beard was yet down
And the flesh smooth
To lie with you
In the laughter, beauty
And strength of our youth
To feel our children
Moving within my womb

To spend countless nights
A whole lifetime of love
In the sanctuary of your arms
To hear the devotion in your voice
Feel your touch of fire
Taste the sweetness of your kisses
Mine alone forever to be
To greet each new morning
Close to you, with the comfort
Of our bodies touching
And our very spirits one

I think of it, this heart’s desire
And wish for it to die
Just as its fulfillment
Will never live
I tell myself to be content
With only what I have
Or will ever have
But in dreams, I still
See you at not yet twenty
And we make love in the
Beauty and strength of our youth

8/26/2002





Virginia Is For Lovers
By
La Belle Rouge

If you're ever in Virginia
When meadows and woodlands
Are blanketed in snow
We'll just stay at home
There's nowhere we have to go
We'll lie by the fire
And watch its warm gleam
Drink cups of hot coffee
Laced with a little Jim Beam
And I'll hold you close
With such desire
The heat of our hearts
Will rival the fire!

If you're ever in Virginia
When the dogwood blooms
We'll sit on my veranda
And listen to the tune
Of robins singing in the trees
Tractor sounds carried on the breeze.
We'll drink a julep or two
And you'll tell me all the things
I want to know about you.
Looking deeply into windows of souls
In conversation sweet
We'll pass the day
Then when the cool twilight falls
We'll quietly slip away
To my flower scented garden
There amid blossoms under the trees
I'll give you love so sweet and perfect
You will never want to leave!

If you're ever in Virginia
On a hot, sultry, summer day
We'll drive down to the coast
And walk along the bay
We'll watch the dolphins frolic
Hear the wild calls of the gulls
And we'll lie there on the sand
Listening to the waves as they lull
Us off to sleep in each other's arms
Blanketed by full moonlight
Kissed by stars in the velvet night

If you're ever in Virginia
When the leaves begin to fall
We'll hike up in the mountains
And look down on it all
Firey reds and russets
Fields of fertile green
We'll watch the eagle soaring
And drink from a cold clear spring
We'll pitch a tent by a rocky creek
And sounds of the wild
Will sing us to sleep

But you're not in Virginia, My Love
And you won't ever be
Only in thoughts and dreams
Can you give your love to me
So close your eyes, My Darling
Forget about space and time
Take my hand let's walk by the bay
In our Virginia State Of Mind!



Only In Dreams
By
La Belle Rouge

Darling, I don't know how long
I can continue to exist
Without the warmth of your touch
The fire of your kiss
My body aches to be close to you
To touch and hold you
The whole night through
How much longer must we two
Pretend we don't feel
What we both know we do?

My love for him died years ago
You don't love her anymore
You've already told me so
So what is it that binds us
When we both want to be free?
Obligation and entrapment
Sometimes seem the same to me
Will it change, or forever be
Love shared only in dreams
Between you and me

If it must only be in dreams
Then let me never awaken
For in my dreams of love
Nothing has come between or taken
The place in your heart and arms
Always reserved for me alone
We're together, face to face
In each other's arms at home
When you sleep tonight, My Love,
Dream of how it could be
When the sun rises tomorrow
Waking up here with me




Ask Me No Questions
By
La Belle Rouge

Are you having an affair?
The question is often asked
Or silently it hangs in the air
Unsaid, but clamoring for an answer
To whom is an explanation owed
Concerning the brightness of colors
The artist applies to canvass
Or the words of fire the poetess pens?
They all believe what they choose
Regardless of confessions or protests
So why not write as one possessed by love
And consumed with the fire of passion?

Why not extol the beauty and tender love
Of a man women only know in dreams
But unashamedly desire to know in reality?
The soulmate, the worshiper of your beauty
The sensitive, tender, yet strong lover
The man who knows how to make love to you
Making you more of a woman than ever before
Pulling from your soul, the essence of
All that is passionate, beautiful, feminine
Capture him on the page, and each woman
Who reads of his tender fire, becomes
Along with you, more of a real woman
A desirable beauty, a goddess of love

So ask no prying questions of me
For I have no answers
His love is mine alone in dreams
But I have not selfishly kept him from you
He is here on my pages, alive in my poetry
You may taste the sweetness of his kiss
Feel the fire of his caresses on your skin
Even sleep in the warm comfort of his arms
Have I not given you enough, My Sisters?
Some of you will never know him
Except through my loving words
Is my gift of such insignificant value
That you must add to it answers
To questions that should never be asked?



Until You Hold Me
By
La Belle Rouge

Too many miles between us
So many nights apart
My body aching for your touch
Loneliness frustrates my heart
Longing to enfold you in my arms
With passion to kiss your lips
Wondering what would be the harm
If one of us took a trip
Knowing before I ask it
The answer has to be no
Too many complications
For either of us to go

Too many things to consider
Instead of thinking of us
Too many others hurt
By such a breach of trust
Lie to me Darling and tell me
It won't always be this way
Tell me the loneliness will end
And we'll be together someday
More than a few stolen hours
More than a day or two
I want to spend forever
Making love with you

To feel your arms around me
To hear you say my name
To free the fire within us
Until we're never the same
No part of soul or body untouched
By the pleasure freely given
Assured that you mean that much
To give you all the love in my heart
And know that in the morning
We won't have to be apart

I spend each night dreaming of you
But dreams don't satisfy me
What am I suppose to do?
Live forever without your touch
Die from the grief
Of wanting you so much?
How could love so undeniable
Be the cause of such harm?
Darling hold me in your heart
Until you hold me in your arms






Everything I Do
By
Bryan Adams

Look into my eyes, you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart; search your soul
And when you find me there,
You'll search no more

Don't tell me
It's not worth trying for
You can't tell me
It's not worth dying for
You know it's true,
Everything I do, I do it for you

Look into your heart, you will find,
There's nothing there to hide
Take me as I am, take my life,
I would give it all, I would sacrifice

Don't tell me
It's not worth fighting for
I can't help it;
There's nothing I want more
You know it's true,
Everything I do, I do it for you

There's no love like your love,
And no other could give more love
There's no where unless you're there,
All the time, all the way

Oh you can't tell me
It's not worth trying for
I can't help it
There's nothing I want more
Yeah I would fight for you,
I'd lie for you, walk the wire for you
Yeah I'd die for you
You know it's true,
Everything I do, oh, I do it for you.


Worth Fighting For(Based On Everything I Do)
By
La Belle Rouge

When we look into each other's eyes
We find the love we've searched a lifetime for
Love though improbable, not to be despised
A love that promises completion and more
We have to fight and not close the door
To what we both know is worth fighting for.

Lovers have died for love less than ours
Though floods they have walked
And crawled through raging fires.
We know in our hearts
It's worth fighting for,
Hold on a little longer
And you'll be completely sure.

Every breath I take, I breathe your name
Every loving thought and every dream
Bears the stamp of my love for you,
You're with me every moment, in all I do.
There is nothing in life I want more than to
Share our sweet love forever with you.

What good is life if we must live it apart
You are a part of me, you fill my heart.
I've never known love like this
I thought it only existed in myth.
If we must love from afar, I want you to know,
Distance won't prevent love to grow!
I can't help myself, I want you that much
And if I never again feel your touch,
My heart will yet be to you an open door,
Because your love is worth dying for.



Until
By
La Belle Rouge

I thought I knew love
Until I met you and realized
No one had ever
Loved me unconditionally
Or wanted me as I am
Until you did

I thought I could cope
With pain and loneliness
Until I met you,
And you opened the depths
Of my wounded soul
Until you shouldered my pain

I thought my walls were
High and tall enough
Until you scaled them
And held me in your arms
Until they crumbled
At your command

I thought this could
Never happen to me
I would remain secure
In my lonely world
Unmoved by any man
Until I met you

I believed I could never
Want a man so passionately
Until I met you and desired
To live and die in your arms
Until I'm completely yours
Until I melt into you

I know I can be strong
If you keep holding me
Close to your heart
Until I feel the beauty
And truth of your heart
Beating always against mine



Worth It
By
La Belle Rouge

Moonlight dreams
Whispers on the wind
Asking when will I see you again
Will the loneliness finally end?

Hot tears in my eyes,
Sharp pain in my heart
How much longer, My Darling
Must we be apart?

Neither of us
Having ever known
Such sweet love as ours
That has deepened and grown

I've never been given
Such devotion and care
All I do is reach out
And your love is always there

Some things are worth
All the pain we go through
Our love has been worth it
Since the day it was new

I've waited a lifetime
For love like this
The touch of your hand
The fire of your kiss

If I have to wait
A little longer for you
Our love is worth
Whatever we must do



Sleepless In Virginia
By
La Belle Rouge

Watching the clock
Listening to the sounds
Of the midnight world
Spinning around
A barking dog
A sceaming cat
The hoot of a screech owl
And flight of a bat

Trying to sleep
Knowing I won't
Thinking of you
Hoping you don't
Forget about me
While we're so far apart
Holding you close
Here in my heart
Sleepless in Virginia
Wide awake again
Longing for you
Wondering when
You'll be in my arms
And my yearning will end

Are you as lonely
My Darling as I?
Are you watching the clock
While the hours crawl by?
Are you thinking of me?
Can you smell my perfume?
Are you wishing for sleep
While dark shadows loom
And you toss all night
Alone in your room,
Wishing our loneliness
To be over soon?



The Heart's Voice
By
La Belle Rouge

Hours into days
And days to weeks
We're apart so often
Still each heart speaks
In a silent language
Known just by us two
You say how much you care
And I tell you I love you
I don't have to see you
Or touch you to know
Your love surrounds me
Wherever I go

I see you in the sunset
And in the soft moonlight
I feel your warmth beside me
All through the long, cold night
And though you're far away
Your heart is always near
When I'm longing for you
Its voice I still can hear
Speaking words of love
And making it so clear
That the miles between us
Can't keep love from being near

And you know, My Darling
You always have my heart
It has been completely yours
Everyday from the start
Since the first time
You touched it so deeply
With your healing fire
Only you can fulfill
My hopes and desire
Long distance love
Was never our choice
But distance can't prevent
Hearing the heart's voice!



Only One Night
By
La Belle Rouge

Only one night, it's all I ask
To help me feel loved again
And forget the past
You don't have to love me
Or tell me you do
Just convince me
I'm worth loving
And attractive to you
For so long I've lived
With a man who could
See nothing I ever did
As right or good

I've never done anything
Like this before
My conscience tells me
To walk out that door
But my heart is so torn
So needy and bruised
I feel numb, like I've lost
The power to choose
To do right just for right
I'm so tired of always giving
And just this one night
I need a man to give to me
The right to be desirable
And passionately free

So hold me close tonight
And just be here for me
Don't leave me alone
Until the morning sun we see
If you have to lie and say
I'm the best you've ever had
Then, Darling, lie to me please
My heart is aching so bad
And though I want love to last
Give me just this one night
To forget about the past



Because You're Here
By
La Belle Rouge

Across boundless miles
I feel your touch,
I can see your smile
Your love inspires me
Surrounds me day and night
How can anything so impossible
Feel so real and right?

We can't let "If only" fill our heart
But, so often I wonder
Why we spent a lifetime apart
You fill a place in my soul
That's been empty all my life
You slipped right in, I lost control
Of caring about wrong or right

Above the present hopelessness
Your arms enfold me
I can taste your kiss
Some things can never be
And though I ache to hold you near
Life is more beautiful, My Love
Only because you are here


Heart Union
By
La Belle Rouge

Just wanted to once more tell you
how special you really are
You're the kind of man I wished for
upon a bright free falling star
You've got the words that melt me
right down to my tingling toes
You know the things that turn me on
no other man thought of or knows
Even when you're far away, My Love
and the distance tears at my heart
no multitude of miles can ever destroy
the sweet union of our hearts
© 4-8-03 La Belle Rouge



If He Had You
By
La Belle Rouge

You're so cold
And he needs a woman's fire
You don't care
So he brought me his desire
I know how to make him
Feel like a man
You never did
And now you can't understand
Why he would turn
To someone like me
If the truth hit you in the face
You still couldn't see

If he had your love
He would never have needed mine
You have him every night
But I get stolen moments of time
I would gladly sacrifice
Though I love him so much
If you would love him more
And satisfy him with your touch
I hold no strings
And have no vows
But he'd rather be with me
Than you right now

I write these words
That you will never see
If you knew how he feels
You would despise me
You'd call me names
And feel betrayed
But if you really loved him
He would never have strayed
I didn't try to take him
I only wish you could see
If he had you
He wouldn't need me



I Wait
By
La Belle Rouge

I wait in silent longing
Starving for your touch
The hours crawl by so slowly
Like ants toiling under burdens
More than triple their size
Soon, I tell myself, soon
You will enfold me in your arms

I think of your kiss, so warm and sweet
The touch Of your skillful, gentle hands
Remembering the scent of your skin
And the deep pitch of your voice
Calling me "Darling" and "Babe"
I'm surrounded with the
Sight, touch, sound and scent of you

Sorrounded with you and loneliness
I live in hope, love in dreams
Lie with you, unashamed
My heart beating against yours
In impassioned imagingings
Waiting in silent longing
Starving for your touch

How is it that you are ever with me
Though never here at all
Our souls forever connected
Beyond distance and impossibilities
My heart entwined with
And beating against yours
While I wait in silent longing
Starving for your touch?


Listening to My Heart
By
La Belle Rouge

My head says,"Run away
Be contented with life as it is
And as it has been
And forever will be"
But my heart says
"Run to him
He is the one you have needed
And been denied so long"

My conscience says
"You have no right
He can never belong to you"
But my heart says
"Take what you can
Of love and happiness
Or die miserable and alone"

Reason says;
"It's unreasonable to think
That my life will ever change"
But My heart says
"If I only believe it can
Love will make a way
To end the loneliness"

I no longer can hear
Reason and conscience
Over the sound of the
Pounding of my heart
So full of love for him
If I die, having listened to
The wrong voice
It won't be from the pain
Of never loving or being loved

I will listen to my heart
the alternative
Deafens me with
Its hopeless noise!



Make Believe Men
By
La Belle Rouge

Enough of memories and fantasies
Gliding through silver moon beamed nights
Enough of sighed for touches
Dreamed of kisses, hopeless love
And stone cold beds
I am more than mystic soul
Fantasy imaginings, illusive desires

I live in satin ivory lady skin
Where nerve endings long to feel
Tender hot touch of a lover’s hands
Red lips of flesh, too sensual to
Satisfy with fairytale kisses
I am a flesh and blood woman
Flesh too demanding for dreams alone
Blood too hot for make-believe men

Please don’t love me or tell me you do
If you can never touch me
Be my friend if you like
Enjoy a little pleasurable fantasy
But for my sake and yours
Don’t ever say that word, “Love”
When there will never be warm hands
And sweet taste of hot lips to seal it

Words well chosen can be magical
Whisking us away from our here and now
Giving us the world and the unworldly
Allowing us to touch each other’s souls
But love is so much more than
Poetic conjuring and dreams
I'll be your fantasy lover but
No man will ever have my heart
Until he holds me in his arms

I have lived for words, survived
On floating dreams and hot fantasy alone
In the end all I had to hold was a pale memory
I will never be just a 3D virtual reality
I’m a flesh and blood woman
Flesh longing to be touched
Lips made to be kissed
Blood too hot for make-believe men
10/6/02



Your Healing Love
By
La Belle Rouge

This is for only your eyes
For only your heart will understand
I feel your heart’s warmth
Even when you are so far from me
Please don’t think me cold toward you
Or insensitive to the longings of your soul
I feel them more acutely than you can know
In the words of passion and desire you pen
And place on the cupboard for all who hunger
To satisfy their appetite to read
Of passionate men and yielding women in love
I feel your love so deeply in the private words
You have written and sent for my eyes alone to read
I ache for you, for me, and the cold slap of life
Being what it must be for all of us
I curse this bewilderment and fear in my heart
That stubbornly refuses to heal
Overnight as I long for it to
So that I could know what direction
What new path is the one to be followed

But my stubborn, wounded heart seems to
Have a determined mind of its own
And my mind reels with hateful confusion
But be assured of this, I have not nor will I
Betray you with any dishonesty of my feelings
If my heart should remain fractured
And I am never able to return the depth
Of love you give, I can say with all truth today
This day, right now as things immediately stand
You have become so dear to me, so connected
Your words like a soothing ointment on all the
Many sore places of my soul, your love,
Even though it must always be from afar
Surrounds me with a sweetness and comfort
That I need more desperately than you can know
There are no other loves, only past ones
Ones I love only in memory or familiarity
The ones that made all these wounds
Then left me to heal as best I could, alone
Alone just as alone as you are feeling today
So we will take a day at a time and just
Be here for each other, with a little sweetness
To sweeten the bitter medicine of life and
Some ointment for the healing of wounds
(c) 12/6/2002 La Belle Rouge



Eyes That See
By
La Belle Rouge

You are there and I am here
so far away yet impossibly connected
How can I know so little about you
and yet know you so well?
I feel the unrest in your soul
the cold loneliness endured
and the aching need for my touch
which I can only give you in words
Convinced that words of love are better
than no love at all, I send them freely
from the depths of a heart that cares and
shares the sharp reality of your pain
Your suffering is mine and mine yours
for we have lived in the same Hell
bear the same scars and wounds
My eyes have never looked into yours
But my inner eyes see so clearly
your pain, needs, love, your worth

So I send them today, words of love
I know how badly you need to read them
I love the man that you are
so strong and tender, macho and poetic
I respect you for being a man of honor
in all the many aspects of your life
I want you to know how lovable you are
so worthy of a woman’s devotion
If I could, I would hold you in my arms
just once so you could feel warmed
I hope that someday you will have
the devotion you so unselfishly pour out
returned unselfishly to you
You are so very worthy to be loved
Words will never be like touch
but true words of love can warm the heart
a heart so big and beautiful
it goes on loving without the response
of hearing words of love
(c) 12/10/2002




Copyright 2002 La Belle Rouge

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