desire battles restraint - story of my life
| Buffers Again
I'm stuck in a no-man's land,
Not knowing where "okay" ends
Or when the things between us start
Becoming something more than friends.
I'm stuck in a war of confusion,
Unable to cherish your face
Or to have you as close as before
Without intruding on your space.
I'm stuck here with a picture,
Not your presence to call my own
Nor your voice in my receiver -
Just static in this buffer zone.
Depression, rejection, and apathy
Wander my thoughts in an orgy of fun,
Celebrating you and laughing that
They get your notice, and I get none.