Dying on the Inside

This is about how I am really feeling on the inside.

The smiling and laughing is killing me.
Being so fake, its all a lie.
I'm dying on the inside and no one knows.
I'm losing control and focus on what's real.
It feels like i'm dreaming.
In a state of existing that doesn't matter.
Please wake me from this nightmare!!
I can't stand it much longer.
How can I continue being so fake?
Its killing me on the inside.